I'm so paranoid cuz of this I can't even enjoy the things I used to love it's honestly sad.

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I was sexually harassed by my step dad multiple times, he doesn't live with us anymore and it's been a year now but it has honestly destroyed me, I'm so anxious all the time cuz I feel like he'll show up out of nowhere cuz that's what happened last time, my mom had assured me that I was hallucinating and it won't happen, she even told him to sleep downstairs but it happened again when she wasn't home and I was sleeping, I woke up and he kept telling me not to tell my mom and kept patting my head, I was shaking so bad, I was so scared but he kept patting my head and I got so fucking angry I jerked his hand away and told him to go, he stepped back but kept telling me to not tell my mom, I was like ok go, so he went away, he came later to tell me again to not tell my mom, I was like ok, go, he went and I locked the door, the only thing I kept thinking was not again pls I have to go through all of it again, finally when I thought it was over I'm back to were i once was.

Vai · Answer

dear, honestly seek some counselling and professional help, when u will share n talk to someone u might feel good, also, don't go to any counselor randomly, review, check verify throught Google or some other means but a good counselor is a must, a good person who is genuine and ofcourse u can trust, does ur mom know about this?

peskybagal7 · Answer

I want to too, but I have rly bad trust issues, I just feel like everything I'll tell my counselor will go straight to my mom and i don't want dat cuz first off after this my mom basically has banned me from ever talking bout my step dad again, secondly I've tried committing suicide multiple times and I self harm too, I wanna talk bout it but I don't want my mom to know. (and yes my mom does know what my step dad did cuz each time it happened I told my mom, first she told me I was hallucinating, and now she doesn't know who to believe, she kicked him out but she still talks to him cuz ig he blackmails her she said.)

Vai · Answer

ohh God, this is pathetic, u have to take care of urself, God is with us always, don't worry about that, we can find a way .. Do things smartly but u have to do it, what is he blackmailing about to ur mom?

Vai · Answer

Jay Maa Saptashrungi .. I believe in God a lot n God is with us always, don't worry, God always give us a way, But the work to be done is by us, U have to take care of urself now .. I don't say to rush over things directly, think and do something about it, n please, suicide is not a solution, please, I know u have been through a lot, I understand dear, but still we will find some way ..

Vai · Answer

n what is he blackmailing about if u don't mind me asking?

peskybagal7 · Answer

nooo u don't get it my mom would go absolutely mental if she finds out that I told ANYONE bout this, and my grandfather doesn't know that my mom remarried and he's extremely against that, he threatened to kick my grandmother out if she ever gets married again but my mom had already done that so my step dad threatens her that he'll tell my grandfather. (my grandfather is mental, he even tried to kill my grandmother and aunt so we know what he's capable of)

peskybagal7 · Answer

so basically my whole family is extremely toxic but ig I'll be fine, I survived many years like this, it'll be okay hopefully tbh I'm better now I just get depressed sometimes thinking bout my life

peskybagal7 · Answer

I try my best to not think bout it tho Even now I had a dream bout my step dad which left me kinda disturbed thats why I came to rant here

Vai · Answer

Ohh .. there must be a weak point with ur step dad too, find it,  don't be scared or hesitate for that,  try having proofs and please keep those proof safe and I would suggest anonymously post about him on social media with certain proofs and without mentioning ur families name if u want to keep it secure but yeah he definitely should be in jail is what I completely feel, think about it, it should not happen to u, to anyone

Vai · Answer

is he still with u, ur step dad?

Vai · Answer

ohh ok okay, so u don't live with him anymore right .. That's a relief really, but u have to come out of this n u can, don't u worry, u can share what u feel with us and since here u can talk without revealing ur identity it's kind of good too n becomes convenient for u to share what u feel

peskybagal7 · Answer

my friends suggested this too, the only proof there can be is prolly in mom's mobile, I once tried but the messages I read of her and my step dad left me nothing but anxious and paranoid for days and I rly don't want dat

peskybagal7 · Answer

yeah and tysm for talking to me i feel much better! <3

peskybagal7 · Answer

lol tyyy I always keep a pocket knife on me tooo

Vai · Answer

N one big tip,  if ever a guy comes to u with that pathetic intention, kick on his balls and just run away from that place defending urself

Vai · Answer

i am glad u felt better talking to me ❤️

Vai · Answer

self-defense is important

peskybagal7 · Answer

yess and trust me I won't bat an eye before stabbing a fucker with sick intentions

Vai · Answer

take care dear ❤️ .. You can have a good life if u wish to have one, I know it's hard, but it's possible, just do ur right and good work and Believe in God .. Jay Maa Saptashrungi.. Things can get better, just be right and do ur work, I know it's hard, but every human is capable of coming out of hardships, u too can, work for it in a right and good way .. try getting a job or do things that u like that are right and doesn't harm others ofcourse and focus on  urself rightly , whenever u feel lonely, just go and feed stray dogs or stray animals, u will feel good.. Don't u worry dear

Vai · Answer

I write too deeply because I have an issue called OCD, so don't take me wrong or take my writings wrong

Vai · Answer

like I write too much clearly or just too deeply or just clarify at times when not required, that's because of my mental health issues, don't take me wrong

peskybagal7 · Answer

tysm for everything, may God bless u, take care of urself too!

peskybagal7 · Answer

ofc ofc not a problem!

Vai · Answer

yeah dear, u too take care .. Jay Maa Saptashrungi ❤️

peskybagal7 · Answer

u can comment on here if u ever need to talk!

Vai · Answer

yeah sure, u too can .. even if u don't get this post, post a new one, I remember ur name, If I will be available I will surely try to talk to u

peskybagal7 · Answer

sure thing, same goes for u and again tysm

Vai · Answer

its okay dear, u don't need to thank me again n again, kind and good people exists too, don't ever lose hope and focus on good and right things .. u will come.out of all this, don't worry ..

peskybagal7 · Answer

you're so niceee idk what to say except tyy😭

Vai · Answer

ok say ty then 😂😂 ...kidding .. u seem to be a nice, kind and understanding person too .. Take care n talk whenever u feel like, if I am available at that time, I will surely talk

peskybagal7 · Answer

oke ty again 💀 also we can exchange our insta or smth too if you're comfortable!

Vai · Answer

haha I said I was kidding for ty thing, yeah sure, what's urs?

Vai · Answer

I actually have a fake account on insta, I don't use much, so 😁😂 .. is that ok

Vai · Answer

do u have 27 followers n 121 following.. is that ur account?

peskybagal7 · Answer

yess

Vai · Answer

pinged u please check

thriftyrhino7 · Answer

don't wrry chill...saale k gaal pe maar achhe se ...tamach ...or pichhwade pe laat .... aese gande insaan hote h..inko achhe se face kro

peskybagal7 · Answer

brotha he is STRONG and he'd prolly shoot me

Venting

how do you get over him?