I've been dealing with depression for a long time now and it was getting better, but since past few days, I've been going through hell again. Honestly I don't have any friends, and I'm not exaggerating, I know people but I don't have any friends, imagine living in life where you think that someone is your bestfriend and then that person has another best friend (story of my life). Am I that horrible at being friends? I ruin all my relationships. Apparently I'm not capable of love, it seems. NOTHING, I REPEAT, NOTHING EVER GOES ACCORDING TO MY PLANS.