I've been feeling suicidal and depressed lately, schools geeting to me and the mental healf program in my country is shit. I really don't know what to do. I really just want to kill myself, cause everyone dies oneday and it's the same fait for everyone and I prefer nothingness over living. I don't know I should talk to someone about thins cause in the past it always ended badly. The program I was sighned onto is really bad and also inconvenient cause it takes up 2 days of the week. And I can only go to school 3 times a week. The "profesionals" there really don't care. I don't even know what to do anymore. I'm in a really bad family situation, and I really don't know if I should ask for help. Cause it always ended badly. Please tell me what the hell to do, I can't do this anymore.