i wish to be normal, but whats the definition of that?

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i feel disgusted ,disappointed and what not i feel like just sitting under the shower, still it wont remove the disgust i feel for myself, i see no solution to my problems. Doctors ,counsillers ,medicines am tired. I daily have my medicines, go for regular checkups but still i am helpless, i dont have the option of dieing. i wish some day i will recover and have a beautiful life

skylar · Answer

why do you feel disgusting?

rottenme · Answer

i am over emotional, need a friend all the time to atleast listen

skylar · Answer

and how does that make u disgusting? @me

rottenme · Answer

every time i talk or argue i am agressive with my tone maybe thats why i am lonely, i am judgemental about things and i like expressing, no one wants my opinion, how can i be wrong all the time, when i try to be good all the time

rottenme · Answer

i am scared of being lonely, though i am lonely already.

skylar · Answer

can u share or recall any incident when u felt something similar?

rottenme · Answer

every time i feel the same, i try to keep myself busy drawing or doing other stuff. but my family never understands, i sholud rather say i dont have anyone. ffrom outside i have many friends i help a lot of people ,people like me envy me.the truth is my life is a mess, disgusting person i am no one likes me, no one needs me. useless creature

skylar · Answer

can u elaborate your this line people like me envy me.. ?

rottenme · Answer

some people might think that she has friends family work, everything that are required as basic needs to survive, then why the hell she is cribing about her emotional breakdown or any silly thing

skylar · Answer

why are you thinking about what other people thinks about u?

rottenme · Answer

i like people i want to be with them, whats wrong in that, everyone has friends and family why cant i have one.... i think i dont deserve.

skylar · Answer

you want to have friends, but at the same time u think u don't deserve them? am I saying correct?

rottenme · Answer

yes coz i rearly get friends who will tolrate me ans my nonsense, my family fails to understand or tolrate... then why others will

skylar · Answer

tolerate...? we tolerate out of formality. why do u feel that u need to tolerated by others?

rottenme · Answer

i am a disgusting creature to tolrate that's why its tough for everyone, or here also i am playing a victim card or i must be hungry of attention, trying to gain sympathy.

skylar · Answer

no, you are not, you're just sharing what u feel

skylar · Answer

u think you are disgusting becoz u r being aggressive?

rottenme · Answer

😢 am tired of doctors medication and consultations. i think there is no hope of my recovery

hello

Frustrating

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