I told you. I was going to meet her. I Uninstalled the app for two days, didn't want her to find it.
David6124
How's everything with the hubby?
sandy22
okay are you guys broke up
sandy22
2 days it was fine but today seems not okay
sandy22
okkk I'll stay away
David6124
I went there, asked her to come out of hostel. She told me to pick her up, took her to my room. She wanted to cuddle for a bit. We did. Then she started kissing, I was kinda scared when she'll say about breakup, so I was kinda passive, she asked me she's feeling like I'm different than usual, I told her I'm scared about her telling that. She said she won't tell. I said okay. We cuddled n slept for an hour. Woke up, took her to hospital, then dropped her off to her college, evening I picked her up again, she said she wants to go park, we went there, I dropped her off to college, I snuck inside her college, we went back to my room around 1am. Dk. Things happened, we spend two days and two nights together. And for now break up is temporarily postponed but she did say she wants to break up.
David6124
What happened today?
sandy22
that's sounds good happy for you
David6124
Idk. She wants breakup to happen. It's just being postponed for now.
David6124
Haa that you leave. What happened re? You guys got in a fight today?
sandy22
we've been married for 6 months and still not go anywhere I wanted to go with him for good time but he's talking about the money and I gave up on so now we've decided go for little vacation he said I'll go with you then I'll go with my friends also but I have already decided that we go for 2 vacation now he refuses π€¨π€¨π€¨
David6124
Ha. I'm broke asf right now cause I had to come back by flight yesterday morning instead of the train that I had on Sunday evening, since I wanted to spend a lil more time with her and cuddle.
David6124
Oh. So both vacations are canceled or just one?
sandy22
first of all few days ago he said that baby 2-2 vacation not possible you should understand me so I said okay we'll go for only one vacation now he says I'll go with friends
sandy22
no one vacation got cancelled but now i feel i should never go with him anywhere
David6124
Ha. Don't be like that. So one got canceled, when is the other trip?
sandy22
now he says first I'll go with you then ill go with my guys.......I felt like he cancelled one vacation for his friends
sandy22
May 16 or 17 june
David6124
Wait what? π€¨ It's July 5th today
sandy22
ohh sorry 16 July my mind it's not working ππ sorry
David6124
For two days?
sandy22
yesππ
David6124
Goa? Or somewhere in Mumbai only?
sandy22
Goaπ π he's not taking me to Goa baba
David6124
Hmm. It's okay. You have more than enough time to go one day. For now you enjoy the trip.
sandy22
actually we wanted go to keral but some issues that would be not possible so let's see where he take me
sandy22
yeah but it feel he going only for me because I wanted go somewhere it feels like I am pushing him
David6124
Oh. I'm from kerala
David6124
Hmm. Don't think too much. From what you have told so far about him, he would also want to spend time with you.
sandy22
I don't know man.....let's see......and you are from kerala...?? sounds interesting tell me about Kerala we wanted come
David6124
Depends on which part of kerala you were planning to visit. South, North or Middle?
sandy22
you tell which part we should explore
David6124
North (Kozhikode,Kannur) for different types of food, Fort, beaches and all. Wayanad and Munnar for enjoying hill stations and all. Alappuzha for house boating and sea food. Ernakulam for shopping, ferry rides, Fort kochi and all. And towards south I haven't explored much. It's mostly beaches, temples and food things I guess there.
David6124
And never ever take autos. They'll rip you off if they figure out you're from outside.
sandy22
okkk and David yesterday I've created a post for you to talk with you
David6124
Oh. At what time? I logged back in at 9 pm around
David6124
I looked up for you and posted "Are you here today" lol
sandy22
in the morning
David6124
Some random people commented on it, couldn't find you, so I thought u might be either busy or left app
David6124
Wasn't here in morning. Something happened?
David6124
Anyway now is not a good time to come visit kerala, here dengue and all is increasing by the day. When you're coming here, come and enjoy properly. Flight you take kozhikode, enjoy there beaches, their special halwa and all. From there work your way down. Or if you are interested in the boating, munnar and all just take flight to Kochi
sandy22
when I created that post some random guys commented on it" David seems busy you can talk with me"...."ohhh you have favourite person"π π
sandy22
yeah okkk thanks for the info....
David6124
lol π . You can find thirsty guys in every app.
David6124
I'm really really tired and sleepy. But can't sleep I'm waiting on her to come back from her lab and call. That mental haven't had her dinner yet, I've ordered to her room, hope it doesn't get cold by the time she reaches.
sandy22
actually I create that post because I was just checking my phone then some msg popped on its from my husband's ex actually his account already logged in my phone so his msg popped on my phone when I read the name immediately clicked in my mind that's his ex when trying to open the msg the whole already deleted because they have talk a day ago and the msgs popped late on my phone because the network
sandy22
that girl very lucky she got you
David6124
Oh. She's there on this app too?
sandy22
oh my god noo David read the msg carefully she messaged him on Instagram and my husband Instagram account logged in phone actually we both have our personal account in our phones
David6124
Ohh. Sorry I got confused since insta thing was not mentioned there. She deleted their chat?
sandy22
when she texted him some msg I opened it and they have talk very much but my husband deleted the whole chat just msg I could read because may she replied late and I also opened the chat late because I haven't received any notification of his chats cause that day my net not working
David6124
oh. are you worried?
sandy22
so I got insecure
David6124
it's normal only to feel insecure in that situation.
sandy22
I asked him what is all that he said "she messaged first and I thought you have read the chat so that's why delete later" but it's not normal for me
sandy22
so that's why I wanted to talk with you but you just disappear and I also got little worried about you because of your break up
David6124
Ha exes can be a real pain sometimes. her ex asked her initially whether he can je*k off to her pic, I got angry at that. he then told her "I'll do as I please, he can't stop me" also my name is ****** and I'll get you no matter what. n now that mental guy is shifting to her city next week and my anxiety is at its peak cause of it
David6124
get her back I mean
David6124
Sorry about that. Morning I was in a rush to get back for job. I missed both bf and lunch yesterday
sandy22
ohhhhh what do you do now
sandy22
it's okk better look after yourself man
David6124
dk. she still has lil feelings for him. that she told me at times. so I'm a bit worried. and I'll probably lose sleep once he gets there.
David6124
idk why he deleted the messages. Did he atleast tell you why she msgd.
sandy22
don't worry focused on yourself and if she really want to break up with you then should get out off from that relationship
sandy22
he said that "we have normal conversation nd I thought my account already logged in you phone so you already read what we talk" but you know I'm feeling uncomfortable i know he's not going to betrayed me but still feeling unsecure cause they have much more closed to each other.......he actually he told me everything about his past life before our marriage
David6124
I kinda feel like she's way out of my league sometimes. and it's true. whether it's look wise, personality wise, family status wise, modern wise, intellectual wise, she's really out of my league and I feel like I'll drag her down cause I'm mental. If she wants to break up, in that sense I feel like it's okay if she'll be free of my chains. but right now she's not well physically and emotionally not in a good place. even though she wants break up, my conscious is not letting me let her go when she's at her low. Idk if it's the right thing to do or not.
David6124
Oh. Technically if it's normal stuff then no point in deleting. If I was in his place, I'd be deleting the conversation that would be controversial and misleading, not normal ones.
David6124
idk how long it will last. we might probably start fighting when he comes there. Usually his topics always ends up in us fighting
sandy22
hmmmmm then stay with her if she want to break up let her do what she wants you do what you want don't leave her alone
Overhuman
leave them straight away & silently!!
sandy22
then don't talk about him
David6124
Sorry. my daily limit had gotten over.
sandy22
it's okkk good morning
David6124
Good morning. Late for work. πΆ
sandy22
hurry
David6124
didn't have bf yet
sandy22
what i don't understand
David6124
breakfast
sandy22
okay
sandy22
i think your lazy
David6124
He left for job?
sandy22
no he will afternoon
David6124
yep. I'm. I don't like this job. I tried to leave the week before. boss didn't accept my resignation
sandy22
he's work at nasik so In the afternoon he will go
David6124
zero motivation I've to go there
David6124
Oh. okay
David6124
Till then family time I guess
sandy22
hmmm he's photographer so tomorrow is wedding order
sandy22
yeahhh family time
David6124
Hmm. Enjoy.
sandy22
wanted new outfit but confused what should take or not
David6124
Hmm. If you liked it, buy. Online or shop?
sandy22
hmmm so confused π
David6124
Why? You are liking more than one?
sandy22
no actually I don't like any oneπππππ
David6124
Lol π€£
sandy22
i don't know what should I wear on my vacation
David6124
So what are you looking for, some dress for wearing during your vacation?
David6124
Hmmm
David6124
Get something that you'd be comfortable in during your vacation. Whether it's T and jeans or something like that
David6124
and that would be good for the place you're going. like cold/warm/beach
sandy22
yeah I'm looking for that
David6124
Online?
David6124
Which site? myntra or ajio?
sandy22
May be we'll go treking places
sandy22
actually Googleπππ
sandy22
Google shows every sites
David6124
Hmm. If it were her, she would've chosen a new T, a good shorts and a good shoe.
David6124
Yes it does show every sites lol
sandy22
shorts ummm he already warned me that don't buy shorts for trekking
David6124
Lol don't tell him I recommended shorts. How about something like a track suit then?
sandy22
i have pair of shoe which I didn't use yet actually I have lots of pairs π π π I only buy actually I loved to buy shoes sandals etc
David6124
Track suit will be comfy to move around and is good for trekking
sandy22
yeah I am looking for track suit
David6124
I think offer was there in myntra for those. 60% or something
sandy22
i really love trendy clothes but I'm belong from very typical family πππ
sandy22
okays I love urbanic but there delivery facility very slow they almost one month and I don't have such time okay I will look Myntra
David6124
Urbanic is there in myntra right? I thought you were in Mumbai. Delivery should be fast there right?
sandy22
no I'm from Aurangabad yeah urbanic is in Myntra
David6124
Haan. I remember seeing urbanic there, cause I ordered lace night dress for her when we were staying together last month π¬
sandy22
OoooooβΊοΈ
David6124
Ms Lingies is also a good option for night dress. But they're on a kinda transparent type and comes as a whole set. She liked that one more than the urbanic one. Me too π€€
sandy22
ohhhhhh kkkkkkkkk I'll try that one
David6124
Anyway you found your tracks?
sandy22
yeah I like some outfits I have send to him let's seee what he say
David6124
Don't break my head after seeing the set though π
David6124
Hmm. Okay
sandy22
no way trust me I loved it
David6124
Hmm. Right now doing sephadex column chromatography, it's slow as hell. πΆ
sandy22
yeah dude it's very boring but when you got results feeling awesome
sandy22
i am loving this f*****g Myntra
David6124
Actually the process is not boring, my compound is like deep purple and it resolves into orange, purple, light purple, dark pink, pink, yellow. It's kinda beautiful. But it takes time to get down drop by drop since we're using a mental column
sandy22
ahhh haaa
David6124
Lol. Don't tell me you're on night dress section
sandy22
i just little surf it onπ but I Love the trendy pair oh my god there so classy I really loved it
David6124
Ms Lingies is good. The coat is soft, I think no b** came with it. And the bottom is more or less of a thread and might be a lil uncomfortable.
sandy22
yeah that quite awesome
David6124
I got her the Ms Lingies Grey Self Design Babydoll with robe and Urbanic Crean Colored Solid Satin Finish Contrast Lace sleep shirt. I have a tendency to rip the clothes when I'm really intimate so she told me to buy yourself if you want to rip. π₯²
sandy22
for me....??
David6124
Nooooo. I said I got her last time.
sandy22
uhhh sorryy missunderstood
sandy22
ahhhhhh now I'm fed up this ol sites oh gosh they get me confused manπππππ
David6124
Usually the day after we get intimate I'd be ordering the dresses that I tore the night before π, and surprisingly when this dress was bought to be torn, I didn't tear only.
David6124
Wait for his reply. You have shared right
sandy22
yeahh but he's busy in shoot and now he's not gonna reply πππ may be reply tomorrow not sure he's very workholic person when he is in shoot he don't call me
David6124
It's okay. Work hard, play hard right. Usually when she's working she also won't talk or answer phone. Anyway how many days it is showing as delivery time in myntra? Will it come before your vacation?
sandy22
yeah it will come before the vacation
sandy22
i really want to some chocolates π π oh my mood swings πΆπΆ
sandy22
r u done with the chromatography
David6124
Oh. That. Oohh. Try the new dairy milk. I forgot the name, its like dairy milk shots, round and small but has either hazelnut or almond in between.
David6124
No. Still going on. Will take an hour more probably. Have to have lunch after finishing.
David6124
I'm waiting on the phone repair guy to call, her phone fell in closet, that too right after she finished peeing. πΆ Now screen is nit working
sandy22
ohhh okkkkk I'll try but basically I love the fruits nd nuts and roasted almonds also yeah I know people don't like it very much but I love it
David6124
Ohh. Roasted almond is my favorite too.
David6124
Wait lemme Google the name of that new one
David6124
Dairy Milk Bites
David6124
It's not that good as the roasted almond, but for trying something new.
sandy22
okkk I'll try and she's not with you right...???
David6124
She's not
sandy22
roasted almonds is roasted almonds man no one gonna take its place
David6124
You like the silk version or normal og one?
sandy22
both
sandy22
and you ..?
David6124
Hmm. Kids these days don't like the og version
David6124
1
I prefer both. but my wallet prefer og version since it's cheaper lol
sandy22
trueππ€£
sandy22
my husband didn't like the dairy milk π
sandy22
i mean not so much
David6124
Not a single variety?
sandy22
no he just eat two or three bites that's it but me I will eat the whole factory πππ
David6124
Ah. I used to eat like that too earlier. But these days I buy like rarely, had to save cash for tickets, room, food and to buy her so stuff while meeting her
sandy22
ummm hmmm is she buy anything for you
David6124
I don't let her spend much. She has her dream to buy Mac and iPhone so been saving up for that. If I can hold off myself a lil then she won't have to spend.
David6124
She'd break my head if she knows I'm not buying much for myself to do all these.
sandy22
Damn lucky girl
David6124
It's the other way around. She's way out of my league in every way. Idk how a mental guys like me even got into relationship with her in the first place.
sandy22
ahh don't think like that
David6124
Anyway, you saw any new films? Major is kinda good film
sandy22
no in last month I saw Spiderman and stranger things and she
David6124
I haven't started stranger things. She was watching last season few days back before her phone fell
David6124
Spiderman no way home?
sandy22
yes
David6124
If you're into South films, try watching Vikram. It's a tamil film.
sandy22
okkkk i don't watch South film so much but yeah I'll try this one
David6124
Idk if you will like it, but it got hit in south India a lot. Even though it's a tamil film it was hit in Kerala and all.
David6124
I'm hungry π₯²
sandy22
okkkk
sandy22
me too I'm at my mom's house
David6124
Something might be there for you to eat right?
David6124
Snacks.
David6124
I love that yellow chapati like sweet that is there. My classmate used to bring. Ooh and that coconut filled clam looking sweet too. Sorry idk the names.
sandy22
puran poli ..??
sandy22
and other one I don't get it
David6124
Dk the name πΆ.
David6124
The other one is like made of dry coconut jaggery filling. It's like in semi circle shape.
David6124
Wait lemme google
sandy22
okkk
David6124
modak I guess
David6124
wait noo
sandy22
ahhhh modak okkk it's a tradition in Maharashtra we made on ganpati
David6124
Karanji it is
David6124
That's the one I like
David6124
The other one was puran poli , you were right
sandy22
ahhh karanji we made it on diwali nd on wedding
David6124
It's soooo yummmmy
sandy22
hmmmmm your gf is also South Indian....??
David6124
No. She's from Dehradun
sandy22
ohhhkkkk
David6124
He replied?
sandy22
i called him few min ago he said this is not the time to discuss this
David6124
oh. maybe night he'll say
David6124
Ah. I tried to do hplc of one of the fractions, no peaks are coming. Sed lyf
sandy22
ummm have your dinner or not
David6124
You mean lunch. I've give the order. Should be here in 40 min. But I'm so sooooo hungry
sandy22
ahhh lunch
sandy22
what you ordered
David6124
Al fahm and 2 kubboos
sandy22
uhhhh i don't know what is it
David6124
Have you heard of shawai
David6124
These two are like kinda chicken dishes. Arabic.
David6124
and kubboos is the white thing that's used to make shawarma. Don't tell me you haven't heard of shawarma
sandy22
i know the chicken shawarma
David6124
hmm
sandy22
can you cook...???
David6124
not much. just barely. why?
sandy22
just asking try cook yourself you can save more money
David6124
actually we have a canteen in our hostel, but I'm missing the time slots coz of my work
sandy22
okkkk
David6124
and sometimes I just miss it on purpose. it's just too lonely to have by myself
sandy22
okkkkk
David6124
ah. she seems really busy today
David6124
she only msgd once in morning and a 5 min call in afternoon
David6124
dk. maybe I'm overthinking
sandy22
your condition is same as mine we are too emotional typo
David6124
ha. I msgd her in mrng, mailed her, Tele d her, then in afternoon she replied with one mail. The around 2 she called for like 5 min to tell about ph thing and her ex calling her to tell he's coming next week to join in her city and about phone thing. ha. I've msgd her, no reply till now
David6124
she could be busy w her work. dk
sandy22
if her phone broken how can her ex contact
David6124
She's using a spare phone of her friend currently
David6124
That guy is like an iPhone geek n loves it a lot. He changed his old iPhone to new one recently. since she's also passionate about the same he was telling her which one to buy n all. idk much about iPhone n all. I never had any interest in them so I'm pretty much useless in this situation
David6124
ah. I'm getting tensed as days pass by about him coming there.
sandy22
don't worry and if she's comparing you with I phone then she's not your type
David6124
she won't compare but I'm feeling useless and dumb to not know these stuff
sandy22
it's okk not all guys are same if you have some good qualities her ex don't have it
David6124
mm. ha that you leave
David6124
hubby replied?
sandy22
yeah replied but 49 sec we talked
David6124
Ha. That mental is still in lab and missed her dinner again. I ordered dinner for her.
David6124
Oh. He selected any dress?
sandy22
not yet
sandy22
okays may be she's stuck in work
David6124
Ha. Probably
David6124
Hmm. It's okay. time is there kno. in one or two days u guys select one
sandy22
hope so till 10th July he would busy
David6124
Oh.
David6124
what do u do in ur spare time during day?
sandy22
computer classes
sandy22
net surfing
sandy22
fight with himπ π π
David6124
computer classes?
sandy22
yess
sandy22
Java language
David6124
like python, chemcad or something?
David6124
ohhh. smart people
David6124
Is it a paid site?
David6124
I want to learn R
sandy22
not a site it's taken by a IT professional
David6124
Shmarrt
sandy22
yeahh in our field there is a lot struggle man and don't get enough result so that's why I choose this
David6124
Ha. I don't get time to sit w lappy during work. I really want to learn some programming language.
David6124
For me R is more important. Then Python.
sandy22
hmmm if you want to learn then you need to give enough time for it
sandy22
but Java is trending in all companies
David6124
I want to continue in research field for a while. I want to get a PhD
sandy22
okkk
David6124
I might not be the smartest guy, but I do want to get PhD in conservation of ecology. I know I'm in bioprospecting field which does the opposite of conservation, I.e utilizing natural resources. I rejected the PhD offer that my boss gave me here since I don't like this much.
David6124
So there R and Python are like basic that they ask. Ohh and scuba diving license (which I need to get too)
sandy22
ohhhkkkk
sandy22
then do what you like
David6124
I want to help in conservation of marine life.
sandy22
ummm hmmmm you know I never understand the zoology specially this marine biology
David6124
PhD was never my dream, but now that I'm close to it, I want to leave something for others to follow up before leaving the field. Else I just wanted to travel around the world as a part of some NGO that specializes in such conservation activities.
sandy22
have patience
David6124
Idk basics of much about it either, other than what I've seen in documentaries and read in books.
David6124
Hmm. In India not much work is being done on that. Hence I'm trying for outside.
sandy22
ohkkkk
David6124
she's back. ha. she sounded sad. her results are nit coming
sandy22
ohhhhhh
David6124
You there?
sandy22
heeyyy
David6124
mm. I'm feeling really helpless, she's struggling with her work and health issues and I can't be there for her.
sandy22
you can take care of from there also
sandy22
just make sure her that you are with her and pampered her
David6124
mm. no. she was crying in mrng saying she has a lot of work, and that she doesn't have hoodie since it's cold. I said I'll order, since she has to spend on buying new phone. first she said okay few min later she said no. and few min back she said she has a lot of work and will be skipping lunch all together, already she's nit well and she's skipping lunch , I told her I'll order for her like yesterday, then she got angry
David6124
I have tons of work,cant even leave cells, my phone is dead,I'm typing with the phone whose half the screen i can't see. Just don't irritate me, i dont want to eat. I don't want to talk,i dont have time to go to fucking doctor. So just let me be, I'll manage accordingly,i dont want food i dont want hoodie nothing I want
David6124
That's the msg she send. Mm. ha. dk what to do anymore. I can't even focus on my work
sandy22
Okkkk she irritate because of her work don't worry she'll be fine and can say you something please don't bother yourself to much for her cause you are too much into her and don't buy any hoodies for her
David6124
mm. I'm not doing anything rn. I just replied 'ok'. sometimes I just feel so helplessand useless. mm ha I'll go do my work.
sandy22
just leave her alone for sometime she'll be fine
David6124
she's been like that for sometime coz of work and health issues.
David6124
mm ok
sandy22
and don't buy any stuff for her nd food let's see how she reacts
David6124
mm
sandy22
so what are doing now
David6124
column chromatography. I'll be doing same for 2 more days.
sandy22
okayyy
David6124
ha. things aren't going well
sandy22
it's okk you'll be fine
David6124
mm. she send me this "im suffering each day, if its work then its fine. but every fuckinhg thing. what and all i should go through"
sandy22
ummmm
sandy22
when he spend his 2 hours with friends after the shoot then can't be spend 20 min with meπΆ
David6124
He came back?
sandy22
i don't know what to do or what to think on this π₯Ί feeling like am nobody
sandy22
and some times thoughts coming in my mind that he only talk with me like a duty
sandy22
#feelingcrying
David6124
ha don't overthink re like that. he loves u a lot, so he talks normally only, not like duty
sandy22
he told me that tomorrow he have another shoot so I'm going to sleep
David6124
early morning he has to leave?
sandy22
but at 11:30 he said call me after 10 min am going home we'll talk I thought that he wanna talk with me
sandy22
yess and I'm at my mom's house
David6124
oh. so 20 min he talked as in phone call
sandy22
when I call him on 11:43 he just talking very normal and just saying I love you I love you i love you that's it am talking on serious topic I shared him very sensitive topic of family which very much connected to me but he don't react very much on it which was I'm not expecting
David6124
he mightve been listening to you, maybe he just misses you a lot that he was saying I love you
sandy22
no when call him 11:30 we talk around 5 min that time also he was not paying attention properly he's friends around him and then he said I'm going we'll talk
sandy22
then he just talk with me for 5 min I'm his wife I have few expectations from him he always more priority to his friends
David6124
What he says during the conversation that you get the vibe that he's not listening to you. is it like "oh, hmm,ahaan,OK, ha" n all?
sandy22
yessd
David6124
You know she never talks to me when she's w her friends. if I call her n if she's with them she'll say I'll call later n the conv won't even last 10 sec. atleast you're getting 5 min
sandy22
and he's very caring person about me but today he's not behaving like that
sandy22
but im giving his my whole time whenever I'm with friends or family
David6124
oh. dk could be that he's really tired today and might be trying to wrap up all his works before the trip next week so that he can have some alone time with you
David6124
Ha but we will do that but it is a mental thing for us to ask the same from them or if we bring it up that we do that for them, it might end up in fight. so better not to bring it up
sandy22
dk his friends and his life that's two very much matter to him
David6124
Ha. It will be fine. Don't think too much. I personally think he's trying to do that only so that he won't be troubled with work stuff when he's with you on trip.
sandy22
yeah sometimes I also expecting to much from him
David6124
Hey how about you guys sleep with each other in call
sandy22
i Don't know what's in his mind sometimes I feel like the only things matter to him is me but but sometimes like he doesn't even care
David6124
like you can call and keep the ph side and sleep together
sandy22
we did but before the marriage
David6124
call will cut automatically after 1.5 or 2 hrs. this way u can feel that he's there w u by ur side
sandy22
now he never say that after the marriage
sandy22
i think I should not depend on him so much for my happiness
David6124
You can ask him tmrw to stay in call
sandy22
i just want to try my efforts
David6124
while it is true that we shd be happy by ourselves as such, you both are married so it's ok to depend on each other for your happiness
sandy22
actually I don't want to put any efforts now
David6124
any efforts for what?
sandy22
and if I stop putting any efforts my will be over soon cause he never ever do such things his ego is more bigger than our marriage
David6124
ha. if he truly loves you (which I believe he does) he will come around. maybe right now he's taking u for granted
sandy22
efforts like always call him if angry on him still am trying to talk with him
David6124
if ure angry on him it's ok not to call sometimes and let him call/msg u back
sandy22
but I can't hold my anger so much
David6124
but u have to try and see next time if he actually makes a move
sandy22
i know he doesn't
sandy22
that's why I gave up
sandy22
you know what i fight with my mother to be with him to marry him
David6124
*pats head* Don't think too much
David6124
they didn't like him?
sandy22
actually he's photographer nd she wanted government job son in law
sandy22
he also fight for me he directly said to his family that I want to her just her
sandy22
tell me If i feel like to be with him always. ..to have him around me.......chat with him is it selfish thing
David6124
idk. whenever I feel that way, later I'd feel like I'm chaining her down
sandy22
what to do dk
David6124
me neither
sandy22
today I cried so much
David6124
why what happened?
sandy22
idk i really hurt alot today one one things of his i realised now his behaviour......the egoistic nature I don't think I'll continue this relationship
sandy22
but I love you him so much π₯Ίπ₯Ίπ₯ΊI can't leave him alone like this
David6124
why today u started noticing those?
David6124
something happened today?
sandy22
i noticed much many Times but I thought that he has work or pressure very much so for his calmness he want his space so ignored that things but now I can't hold it anymore he should change his attitude towards me
David6124
It's been 6 months after marriage right?
sandy22
I'm afraid to being failure I really wanna work on this relationship but he should also show some efforts
David6124
Will he be free this Saturday and Sunday?
David6124
if he will be, talk to him
sandy22
yess but he's always like this like before marriage also I thought that he'll change but now taking me granted so much and he's aggressive also so whenever I tried complaint him about his behaviour then he said that I don't want to explain my self do what you want I don't think that you have valid reason nd you don't understand my situations" but sometimes you should (my husband) should focused on me
sandy22
kya baat kru yar whenever I tried he get irritated and he thought that I don't understand him but what about me these thing gonna killed me some day
David6124
Ha. Have you guys had contact today?
sandy22
yes I came at my house today in morning i come and he showing me attitude as like always I make a move to talk with him with harsh words then again we fight a little then he sorry to me and hugged me and leave for his work but still the thought bambarding in my mind
David6124
Maybe its nit attitude, maybe he's not the type to openly show affection but the type to show in his own way.
sandy22
i hope you saying right
David6124
me too
David6124
Anyway u decided on ur dress?
sandy22
π he have enough time for other things but not for this
David6124
How u said that with a smiling emotion π
sandy22
I'm really really frustrated and feeling very down like want run from here
David6124
mm. me too. but let's just hope that everything will be fine for us
sandy22
idk hope soπ€
sandy22
he's not feeling well today so he continuously shouting on meπ
David6124
ha. she's not well too. yesterday night I got shouted at a lot. and today mrng when she was going to hospital then also she shouted. now she's going for some stand up comedy show with her friends
sandy22
hmm at least she go with friends but for me I don't have life like that if I want to go somewhere then there's lots of questions....like where are you going why etc sometimes i feel i should go somewhere for my inner peace but I can't because now I'm married
David6124
Haan in ur case ur hubby goes out w friends n all. in my case she does. I'm a loner, doesn't have friends to hang out with. so usually I just either lie in my bed reading or work in lab like mental
sandy22
once I'm able to earn for me I'll go for tour alone
David6124
he'll let u go like that?
sandy22
nd do that things which gives me happiness nd peace
sandy22
no never but I'll do something for that
sandy22
now from today I will not dependent on him my own happiness π yes I can be happy there's alot people in the world who live like this
sandy22
you should thing like that
sandy22
no why
sandy22
ummm okay want to try tell me how can I do that
sandy22
let's do one thing that promise ourselves something
sandy22
okkkk let me download the prime
sandy22
like never ever think to much on love life
sandy22
humne pyar kiya hai yar to sirf pyar krte hai na apne partner's usne jyada ki ummed nhi krte hai abse selflessly just showring our love on them
sandy22
i really love my husband and I will always you also love her so selflessly just loving them I think this things makes us happy
sandy22
I'm really happy that time his happy so never ever cried on this and let's do promise also we will always there for them and take care of them but 1st we will love ourselves
sandy22
heyyy r u okk with that
sandy22
okayyy you know I feel very good now
sandy22
only me can handle myself in such a situations yar whenever I feel very low I don't suddenly my self tell me something like that and I feel energetic is it interesting π π π
sandy22
yeah I got it now tell me what to do
sandy22
yeah I downloaded it now
sandy22
yeah he have
sandy22
okkk let talk with him first then I'll tell about this
sandy22
okkk thnks
sandy22
you can msg her like just good morning
sandy22
have you guys talk or not then
David6124
You left the app I guess or ure busy
sandy22
yeah I was busy
David6124
mm oh
David6124
How's everything with hubby
sandy22
in family function
David6124
Oh. And trip?
sandy22
mmm all okkk
sandy22
trip postpone
David6124
oh. mm
sandy22
he's going tomorrow with his friends
David6124
Umm bro. That topic is long over. We just use this thread to talk with each other
David6124
With his friends for the trip?
sandy22
yess with his friends
David6124
Oh. Okay
sandy22
how you doinh
David6124
idk. I seriously dk how I'm doing
sandy22
is everything ok
sandy22
heyy what happened
David6124
I hope tom doesn't talk too directly to her. I wanted to ask you for help but you said ure in some family gathering and you probably won't be comfortable with Google meet even though it's audio only