I guess I have so many insecurities and fears that now, whenever my boyfriend says something that's even slightly directed towards how I look or how I am, it makes me have an immediate reaction which is mostly me being either pissed off or hurt. It always leads to me crying and him feeling low because then he feels like he did something wrong. And i so want to control my emotions but i just can't..or can't seem to. It's like a whole different person taking over whenever i have an outburst. I low key fear I have Bipolar. I don't know. I'm a mess...and I don want to hurt him. I love him and i want this to last man.