It hurts

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It hurts to share when you know no one can help you but yourself and you have been stuck with yourself all your life and you know you fucked. It's just that feeling of choking and wanting to scream at the same time that drains you. Smh. Sleep used to be peaceful but now when you close your eyes it's just thoughts consuming that you held in a day. There are many ways to end it but I generally hate pain which is funny when used to eat poison for fun as a kid when sad and pray it killed me. I know I'm not alone and many more out there like me that feels the same from many things till gone mad. I'm sorry and hope you can get some help or something worth living for.

pumkinpie · Answer

it's difficult but well said

pumkinpie · Answer

I feel no one can actually help you except yourself. but that kinda push and motivation is needed from our specific others

Starfire · Answer

I trust no one close to me for good reasons and used to being lied to so much I find it hard to believe anything. I got the chance to work on it though so taking it to at least try.

pumkinpie · Answer

hmm

pumkinpie · Answer

your age? if you can share

Starfire · Answer

in my twenties

pumkinpie · Answer

early, mid, or late?

Starfire · Answer

early

pumkinpie · Answer

hmm, it's okay. you'll be fine

Starfire · Answer

lol 😆. You're cool

pumkinpie · Answer

haha. I think at this age, you are uncertain about a lot of things and you are constantly changing. I'm in my mid 20's btw

Starfire · Answer

it's a bit more than that but the panic of age is major lol so 🙌

pumkinpie · Answer

Maybe I can feel you

pumkinpie · Answer

I still have these issues so yeah, not sure which age is actually you get peace

pumkinpie · Answer

maybe when you're a baby?

Starfire · Answer

the age when your grey with saggy buns maybe.

pumkinpie · Answer

I want my partner to still love and be attracted to me in those times too

Starfire · Answer

nods well love stuff is a whole other bridge lol but you will find one that does :3

pumkinpie · Answer

are you panic about your career or your relationship?

Starfire · Answer

Family relationships, career and mental state.

pumkinpie · Answer

hmm, you live alone or with your fam?

pumkinpie · Answer

there?

Starfire · Answer

yep

Starfire · Answer

with fam

pumkinpie · Answer

hmm, that's something altogether

Starfire · Answer

yep

Starfire · Answer

especially when your dependant on them

pumkinpie · Answer

v true. I have observed like when you start getting independent, you tend to take less shit from them

Starfire · Answer

True! sadly I gotta ping off but was a nice chat ❤

pumkinpie · Answer

likewise :)

Starfire · Answer

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Unloving

Need someone to talk to!!

I really want to change

not able to accept my reality !!