its difficult to express your feelings or emotions or make them understsnd the situation to your family.. yes sometimes i am loud with my voice but my intention was only that atleast they understsnd me..... whenever any chaos create between my family they only held me responsible for all this..... now m feeling that its better not share your opinion with any one not even with family members....... but then they blames me that i am not happy for them..... or i dont want to celebrate with them..... one side they ignore my opinion the other side they want me to involve in their enjoyments...