hey, what happened

idk what's the reason behind it like there r so many things to be bothered about

ok, just tell me one by one.

4 years back i had this " best friend" who ditched me for her online frnds who backstabbed her and later she blamed everything on me played the victim role and stuff.. later i was having fun with my frnd where i kinda said or pretend to be drunk so one the her frnds was there he informed her and.. trust me told my mum about it when i wasn't home and some lies too. I got to kn about it from some other frnd present there. It's might sound dumb and childish but i trusted her more than myself my parents my boyfriend i choose her over everything and then she showed me how replaceable i was...

nobody is your well wishers other than you that's today's reality friend. i have also got a lesson about this sometimes back

I can understand but i was too innocent and a child to understand back then before her every frnd i had somehow ditched me ok it's was hard i felt ugly bullied teased and pathetic i couldn't take it resulted me to cut myself hate myself and idk what more worse

you must have gone through so much, it's painful

it's fine to me honestly i found a guy who really helped me recover I'm dating him atm but the fact that we broke up once for my ex ( the guy who i chose my ex best friend over ) and we got together but made me feel disgusting honestly

that's great actually having someone on your side is the best thing you can have

but i think I'm becoming very toxic to him... like i stoped being emotionally sensetive care much...

try to spend more time with him, travel, enjoy so you both get emotionally well connected,share every problem with him all these will help you

it's hard for me to do so cuz i too hurt him enough due to my unstablelity he knows but idk if i should be trying my best to the same again

try it for once maybe it will help you both