I can understand, i think you should talk to your family members about how does it make you feel.
Who are you close to in the family?
They know I feel bad about this... But they often does this to me....
I think you should assertively address this and talk to anyone who you are close to in your family.
Maybe that person can actually validate your point in front of your father?
I think he won't understand me.... I just felt bad and can't rid of his aggressive words... I need to accept the reality
golden, listen to me. Dont give a damn about what he is saying. i know its hard. when you hear harrasing words every damn day of your life you cant help bit believe them. but let me tell you he is saying utter bullshit. Dont believe. Think of him like a dirty devil who is saddist and feeling better by mentally tormenting you. He has is issues to solve. Dont belive what he is saying. If he bodyshaming you talk back and shame his mentality. Tell him no loving parent will do that. Tell him that by making you feel worthless about yourself he is proving that he is a bad parent. stay strong. They may call you arrogant, but believe me you are just standing up for yourself. eventually he will stop aiming his shit at you seeing that you are strong and determined. Do this, be strong earn your respect.
Thank u lots.... I'm preparing for my exams.... If I have job I would easily leave him.... But I need to depend him ... First I argued a lot.... But now I'm totally tired of him.... I just started ignoring him.... I directly said that he hates me and don't even likes me.... Just not an issue for me but I feel very hurt for this because what did I do that he hates me this much.... I can't able to study... Then he is started to say that after my marriage, my husband will leave like that.... I feel very bad for his words.... Because of I'm girl, my grandma (dad's mom) don't even like me... She likes only boys.... She gives her all love to my brother only.... So I won't talk with my grandma she always hurts me because I'm girl..... She had passed away due to covid..... Now my dad saying I'm the reason for my grandma's death.... I can't even tolerate his words... I can't go away from my home also... Iam totally struggling
5th line-(He directly said that he hates me and don't even like me)