I can understand this must be really difficult for you.
But you need to accept yourself first. This makes you unique.
Look for a healthy lifestyle not that you want to fit in to a society standards.
What happened in your family?
Who are you close to?
Don’t feel sad. Just be yourself and trust me things will work out
the deppression made me stop eating and yea i lost weight got more attention but it doesnt matter because i felt better when i was fatter