Hey! Thanks for reaching out. I can understand how stressful it must be for you. It’s okay to be average not everyone is an overachiever. It’s okay to be confused, what’s imp is that you explore different options in order to find out what really excites you and you are willing to devote yourself in it.

I feel you. You should recognise yourself what you are good at and make a career out of it. Art is a great subject if you take interest in it. Our parents they say things which might us but deep down they are just concerned about us. They want to see us excel in life. Stop taking things very personally whatever you find constructive consider that discard the rest don't get into the loop of overthinking about it. Everyone have their opinions it's our choice which one we have to consider. Make a list of in whichever aspect you want to improve in life and start making changes for one habit in a month then pick up the rest. For speaking english fluently watch english movies with subtitles on any movie of your fav genre and work on vocab read book by Norman Lewis 10 words In a day and start talking to someone in english. You can even talk to yourself in English. But remember always talk kindly to yourself. I hope you become the bestest version of yourself.