hey! everything's lately has not been good to me. it's like i try to be happy but really end up sad. i am not too strong financially and my father is not so well. every time i wish to talk to my mother about anything i end up being hurt by her. my siblings are way too immature and in their life. also, my i was in a relationship which was way too toxic. so the guy started consuming drugs and stuff, i even tried stopping it but he didn't stop. obviously, i couldn't tolerate more so we broke up. it has been a while but a couple of days ago i smoked weed and everything flashed back, i suddenly feel all the pain, guilt and regret about everything in my past. i just don't know what's gonna be in my future and i really feel like quitting everything at some points cause i cannot hold more. plus, after a very long time i liked a guy, he's way too genuine to be with and he asked me out too but i ended up being an asshole and said because of a lot of insecurities and stuff. please help me