You deserve to be surrounded with people who love you and care about you , and I'm sure there are a lot of them but now you are busy looking only for people who left you
No you are not alone, I am right here.
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You are never alone
Don't ever put so much pressure on yourself to that extent where you feel alone
Because even the most selfish person still had feelings and if you talk to someone about your feelings they would never just back down from it