Are you not close to anyone in The family or friends? It’s very important to vent. You can try to journal your thoughts too. It helps.

@zidane i only have my mother and brother as family. And we dont really have good trusting relationship. After all, if my family showed me on my earlier years how they can break you themselves, how much more other people who isn't blood related to you. Generally, i get along well easily with people. But they don't get to come close to me and see the vulnerable me. They often go to me to vent our their problems, ask advice, but i dont really talk about my own. I did a few times, and i got a lot of disappointments. Some brush them off bec they think its trivial and they didn't see me as 'the deep sad type of person'. Other times i feel bad for venting bec it made them uncomfortable when i share what i am going through. Instead of having relief feeling of unloading a few, i grew more anxious and detached. So in the end, i end up not sharing. Both for mine and their sake. That's why i also try to find good online platform to vent out things like this.

I'm your type dear.... I'm social person but by heart an introvert .... I don't share things that breaks me and personal things.... Like that I have 1000s and got this platform.... It will take time to love yourself.... But once when u start, trust me!!!.... You will be the most satisfying human ever after that! I felt I don't want anyone to make me happy but I could offer happiness to others.... That really works my dear.... Try this! Help others.... Hear to others' problems even if u are unable to help them .... Only few can be alone and be social.... And I'm blessed for that and luckily found you