I've been depressed for like 4 years now. I've tried everything possible. The doctors have given me ECT and all the advanced therapy but I still feel miserable every single day. I hate the fact that someone like me lives in this world. I hate myself so much I'm loosing friends left to right, I either sleep too much or never sleep. I cry alot. I'm just so sad. Everyone asks me what's bothering you.. but the problem is I'm miserable on my own. I don't have an external factor making me sad. I have tried to think positively and it never works. Is there someone who can relate to me atleast.. I don't care if there's no solution.