I often feel like I don't deserve love. When I was younger, and even now, I remember my family telling me how I am not good enough, how I am not good at anything, how my cousins are so much better than me, how I'm just average at everything I do, how I'm so lazy, how I cannot do anything on my own, how I'm not a good child like my cousins, how I couldn't make my family proud, etc etc. I got only 75 percentage on my 12th boards. I try to be better but I fail everytime. I try to be active but don't feel like doing anything. I tried to do internships but I always feel like I'm dumb and nobody will want me. I want to be active, be successful, make my family proud but just don't know how.