Don't be so hard on yourself. This happens to the best of the people as well
It’s okay, it happens with everybody. Try to be mindful of what you are doing if find it difficult. Take small steps towards doing things. Be calm while you start to do something.
Clumsy is part of life, we're all clumsy at some point but you should never feel like your screw up things because if things were meant to be they would have been, and you cant blame that on yourself, you can't go through all the pain alone and you can't be the one at fault for something that was not meant for you, love yourself for you, hate is a very strong word and I doubt that you hate the body that gives you and helps you with everything in your life, you are different in your own way and you have to build from that