It's been weeks since I felt like myself and excited about a day. I always feel tired and fatigued. It's almost like I want a break from being alive and just sleep like the dead. Nothing motivates me or makes me feel better. I don't think I'll ever stop feeling like this. I do all my work half-heartedly. I can't even tell my girlfriend that I don't want to talk to her or anybody. I think I'm depressed