Messed Up!

Question

So, yeah! I'm Gay. And, I've always wanted someone to talk about the issues i faced since childhood till now. I've gone through depression, but I'm out of it, although i do get nightmares. And i go to bed crying about how i wanted a normal life, like everyone else! So, my deads a drunk, my mom doesn't really know I'm visible and my sister is living the life she wanted. And here I am, a broke ass gay loser, trying to figure out what to do in his life, get Outta this hell hole. I just wanted someone to listen to my side of story and I'd listen to his/her.

Shreya12 · Answer

hey yes we need people to listen to us . pls share your story or join the listening circle which I also found very helpful to express myself. you are anonymous there and can share your heart out. it's a non judgemental platform which I never found anywhere outside.

Slem · Answer

hope you can get help with that

uniquegurr · Answer

well it will be fine. You will get someone too dont worry

scornfulAntelope0 · Answer

Right. So my story begins with me being from a middle class family and there is my dad coming home drunk everyday from work and disturbing peace in our family. I never had a room of my own and we all used to sleep together. He was such a nuisance. He used to throw away food, beat up mom and us, made us sleep out of the house. In this as i grew up i used to run to my granny's place just when I was 13 and ever since I kept running from all this. I failed my 10th and dropped out, started working and was staying where i worked. I just wanted peace mahn! Although i had to go back everytime because he used to beat up mom. But she was the fuel to his anger, and then there was this thing she had with one of his cousins. I grew up in this shit and one day I wrote a letter to my mom of me being and she said: It's okay, I'll take you the priest everything will be fine. WTF! I stayed apart for few months and eventually i made friends who were selfish to the core! I thought did i go somewhere wrong? Is it my fault? I just wanted a normal life, a room of my own. Too much to ask for? But then this all ate me up and i started smoking too much of weed. People noticed the changes in me but never uttered a word. Am I invisible?

Shreya12 · Answer

Hi you definitely deserve the best and you are worth it .. I also didn't have a room of my own and had an abusive drunkard father but he didn't abuse or hit his children. he only hit my mom. now situations have changed as we grew up. since you have been in a very deep shit since childhood pls consult a therapist .. that would really help

scornfulAntelope0 · Answer

Okay! Sure. Thanks Shreya 🦋

umasingh · Answer

dear🌸, don't worry.... I'll always for you. you are loved and strong. more power to you. be with good company.

scornfulAntelope0 · Answer

Yes! Thank you @Uma 🦋❤️

I am not fit for anyone

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Need someone to talk to!!

not able to accept my reality !!