what's on my mind? um, okay. this is gonna be a series of events as I go through. I've been feeling lonely, since a couple of months or so. I don't know but everyone is acting out weird, my friends would ghost me. I recently came out to it, and the reason is pretty rubbish, we're on the verge of turning 17 and 18, but still they act childish. is it just me finding this weird or I don't know. I've been told I'm matured and responsible, and I literally take everything seriously. last year i was in 11th, so fooling around was fine. but now I'm in 12th, I'm gonna give boards next year. I gotta focus, right? but they think I'm becoming excessively toxic. I mean yeah I'm toxic, because I don't let people take advantage of me. but excessively? I'm just focusing, right? I'm literally not begging 'em to stay. or should I, am not sure. I've not gotten any real friends, they are just my classmates or say casual friends. I mean I don't even have a friend circle, it's a dot, it just consists me.