I started feeling hopeless again, I lost some money because of my stupidity and I don't even want to talk to anyone anymore, I always want to stay home, Hurt myself
I can't even concentrate on my studies
will it give you money back?
where you lost the money?
I hosted a party but due to some reasons, I had to cancel it, and advance booking is not refundable
ok then you can't do anything for that
I didn't loose much but that much also matters to me
what's the reason for cancellation?
it happens sometimes it wasn't in your control
okay so I'm 17, I'm in 12 class
me and 2 other friends thought about hosting our unofficial farewell
but we got in rivalry with other kids
there was another party too, and they were forcing kids to come to theirs, blackmailing them
ooh but that's not good
that's why there weren't enough people in ours, we needed to pay 64,000 to the club
and it looked like if we didn't cancel we'll suffer loss of atleast 20,000
thats why we canceled
ooh that's a huge amount
see what happened you can't change that
yes ik but my mother is a single parent
i know it's a big loss, if it would has me i must be crying for that but now it has happened
and ik that we are not poor or anything but, she works sp hard to earn this money
and I lost it because of my childishness
try to learn some skill after 12 boards you can earn that money and get over the guilt. that's the only option
leave it I'm over this now, I know how to save money now
I'm not going to farewell, I'll save money by that
hey don't do that, that's last day will be for the teachers you have been with yrs
but it would be like, agr Mai jati toh it would have cost atleast 1500, I'll save that much by not going atleast
and I don't even want to go
I don't like school anymore
can you compare both of that amount?
it used to be the place where I felt good, but it's not like that anymore
nobody likes in 12 but after graduation you will cry for school
I feel insecure, alone, sad in school
I used to like it, even love
why is that?
see, my friendships never work out
and I don't even trust anyone now
I miss my friend, but I can't get her back
it this age it's normal it happened with me also.but don't leave connection with school
and there was this male friend of mine, we were close I told him that i doubt if I was gay and he even helped me with that, then we went on school tour, we didn't talk there, after that tour we just stopped talking for no reason
i asked him if something was wrong, he said no nothing, then next day I asked him something in school, them that was it
we never talked after that
i know society and people don't understand these things easily. but you can't ruin your happiness for that
I want to talk to him, I want that bond again, how do I do that?
I don't think he even cares that I'm bisexual
see it happened with me also if the other person don't want we can't impose
but I don't understand why, did I do something?
everything was fine before tour, even when we were going, in train we talked and had fun, idk what happened afterwards
sometimes we don't have reason for somethings
do u think maybe I should try talking to him normally, if he behaves normally then it's no prblm
if he doesn't, I'll stop
if he is talking to you then approaching is ok
if not then leave
bye take care.
you too. thankyou :)
I texted him
and realised I have lost him for real
I miss him so much🥺
don't worry you can many friends in life
I don't understand why, I didn't do anything
i am your friend if you feel ok to be with
yeah but he was the only one who was always there for me
see it happened with me also someone very important to me left me alone
but i don't have other options i also cry for her many times
yeah your ex
but you do have friends tho,right?
no i don't have. that's why i use these apps to talk to people
yeah so make new friends
it's not easy
i hope you get over this soon
I'm too introvert
i know it's not
same with me also
but what other we can do
you should try tho
do you have any mental illness?
do you have?
I have depression and borderline personality disorder
ooh so how are you getting it treated?
I went to a therapist in the month of june
I got treatment for a month them he told me to get medicines as therapy was not working but
my mother didn't want mw to take the medicines so I stopped
get well soon
what do you do?
after that school reopened and I started feeling better but now it's same as before, kinda worse
to come over this without medicine
I can't do anything about it
my mother won't let me take medicine
it will get better try to get in good college
make some new friend
idk if I'll be able to hold on till then lol
I'm getting suicidal thoughts again
don't think that please you will get better
get well soon
unluckily not rare borderline personality and depression, not so rare may have both. sorry to hear struggleing with! what do you maybe wanna know or what maybe question or else may like talk about?