i have bad self concious issues.. never really had anyone to build my self esteem.. my body has battle scars from over the years from my work and just life.. i should have been dead couple times over.. had an ex husband that beat, raped, and tried killing me.. chased my thru 4 states before i found somewhere he didnt find me.. alot of things have made me feel the way i feel.. i truly believe my mother hated me at conception.. im 51 and never had the emotional security most have had.. life just blows .. for some reason God has kept me around.. i just think he's had too much faith in me really!