Actually I am thinking of killing myself for 3 years and all days were so bad and no day just pass but passed with a lot of problems and pain and I am not okay and I can't behave as I used and my head kills from the pain and stressed all the time with my thoughts and can't breathe what should I do? I don't it ended by killing my self and I am so lonely in strange place without family friends or home I am that bad to deserve it . I hate myself.