I honestly have no idea on why I am “depressed” or “anxious” or even lazy or lacking energy to do anything. All I know is that I just wanna lay dead and yet I don’t why! Maybe because of my grandpa’s death as he was the only person that used to listen to me😕 or maybe because I have an uncle who is a drug addict and is getting all hate and blame for being a junkie even tho everyone knows that he was forced to do drugs back when he was in college or maybe because my parents been telling me to kill my self or because I am just failing my exams or maybe because I am just worthless to society and make no difference if I am dead or alive. I honestly dunno if anyone can tell me how I can find the reason then please do. this was my first post to get some stuff off my chest ig and I hope this can finally give me the ability to have a good sleep🤷♂️