no one takes me seriously

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I see spiders and tarantulas on my walls when I wake up... they are delusions, they eventually dissapear after a couple of eternal seconds... but that's some kind of schizophrenia that no one would take seriously... I think I have cancer but no one believes me... I went to the doctor and he wrote me an unreadable note and laughed at me, and sent me to the psychologist... I went to the psychologist and they also laughed at me... I don't need that, I need someone to take me seriously and make me a serious diagnosis... but I'm incapable of that... I think I'm neurodivergent, autistic, asperger, and that's why the world looks so difficult from my point of view... but no one would take that seriously enough to actually analize my mind and see if that's true or not... I'm just trapped on a society that would end up killing me from the inside... I think just a little of consolation... someone to take my sadness for a minute, would make this a little more bearable for me...

lonewolf07 · Answer

hi

lonewolf07 · Answer

are you going through any stress recently

Sheila_Lucia · Answer

lots of stress... it has been 5 years that I'm incapable of relaxing

Sheila_Lucia · Answer

thank you for answering

lonewolf07 · Answer

any particular reason

abjecttomatoe4 · Answer

hello

Sheila_Lucia · Answer

yes, I had a very toxic relationship that erased myself... everyone thinks that I'm depressed because I loved her and I lost the love of my life like in a stupid movie, but that's not the case... I actually lost myself, my head is numb all the time, my chest hurts, my stomach hurts... I can't focus, I can't relax... I can't do anything, not even play any videogames

Sheila_Lucia · Answer

hello abjecttomatoe4, thank you for writing here

lonewolf07 · Answer

bro you are not neurodivergent or autistic. you are heartbroken. if you loved her truly it's going to be hurt physically. It will pass. you have to be strong. just share your problems here

Sheila_Lucia · Answer

lonewolf07 you are not taking me seriously either, I was heartbroken before her and I know how that feels, and I'm sure that this time is totally different. If you are going to insist that I'm heartbroken please leave, I need help with emotional numbness, coercitive control and c-ptsd, not with a stupid heartbroken. I wish it was so easy as that.

lonewolf07 · Answer

no bro I take you seriously

lonewolf07 · Answer

any other stress work related or any thing

Sheila_Lucia · Answer

sorry if I came out rude before, I'm just so stressed that I get irritated easily... I'm not working nor studying...  I also have zero friends... my stress comes from inside me and that's the worst part, I can't get rid of me

lonewolf07 · Answer

is there any specific reason for not working or studying

Sheila_Lucia · Answer

My reason today is that I'm stressed and can't move or even think straight, much less work. But my general reason is that I can't talk with people in a normal way, I'm incapable of small talk, I'm awkward, can't hold eye contact, can't understand messages 'between the lines' or indirect, I'm easily deceived and very emotional, I don't know what people expect me to say or do in any situation... and all that makes people uncomfortable with me or they just laugh at me in a cruel way. I can't function with direct social interactions, basically, so if I have to work I would need one that has no direct interaction. Same with studies.

lonewolf07 · Answer

how old are you

Sheila_Lucia · Answer

prepare to laugh, I'm 30

lonewolf07 · Answer

why should I laugh bro

Sheila_Lucia · Answer

Because everyone laughs at my suffering... but thank you for not doing it

lonewolf07 · Answer

if you feel ill no matter what your age is you are not feeling well. and it's OK to be 'not ok'. I just asked your age to know how I can help you

Sheila_Lucia · Answer

thank you

help me please

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