obsessive thoughts about unhygienic things

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OCD

I don't know what is causing this but since this lockdown, I've been allergic to dirt and grossy things .. I can't even touch the dustbin and sometimes really gross thing comes to my mind and I feel like puking .. it was not there until last year .. by somehow it's severe now .. I don't know how to control these imagination.. u constantly tell myself that it's ok chnge the topic and think about other things.. somehow i control myself bt not all the times .. i can think of this reason .. last year .. my best friend.. I was in love with him .. actually I'm in love with him and we've been frnds since childhood.. same school .. bt diff college now .. we were best frnds until last year .. when I started liking him and started to act weirdly around him .. I don't know why I did that .. he was busy with his placements and didn't gave me much attention.. it was not usual for me as he was the one with whom I used to share my feelings till then .. and suddenly he started to ignore me .. I can understand that he was busy so I always tried not to bother him .. I don't know why he started things like - kachra mt bola kro (he meant to say that don't say unnecessary things,he said that because he thought I was talking faltu things) and that kachra word hit me hard .. like I've been ignored many times bt no one has said that I speak kachra.. i can think of this reason .. or may be i misunderstood it .. bt i don't really know .. last Nov I told him about my feelings for him and we don't talk like before .. I know it's not normal to talk after my confession bt I didn't expect anything from him .. I knew that he won't ever have the same feelings for me .. there are things that I've said to him that I don't think is wrong by somehow he misunderstood them and thinks that I talk nonsense.. I tried to explain them a lot of times that I didn't meant it that way .. bt may be he's too sensitive to accept it .. anyway .. how can I cure this germophobia type thing ? U know sometimes when I'm eating , grossy things like a lot of hair's image or bahot ghinaune type images comes to my mind and i can't even eat .. I get anxiety attacks because of him .. and now this germophobia Wala thing .. I don't know what to do.. please help

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Now I'm scared of talking to anyone .. thoughts like- what if they think the same abt me ? What if I'm taking nonsense again.. what if they leave me if I talk to them like he left me ? U know .. he didn't even wished me on my birthday nor on the new year .. by yeahh .. I can understand.. he might be busy.. bt now I'm left with no one to share my feeling with .. a constant feeling is there that if I talk to them, I'll talk kachra (nonsense) ..there are some frnds bt I don't feel close with them to share these things .. or may be I'm just scared of being judged again .. now talking to anyone .. I'm filtering the things always .. I filter out the imp things and say only that much .. no unnecessary talks .. even when I feel like getting close to someone then I try to distance myself form them so that I don't have go through the same in the future ...

Zoya Ahmad

Hey! Thanks for reaching out. I am sure this must be really stressful for you. First of all, if your bestfriend can’t respect what you confessed to him and start to act weirdly then that means there is something fundamentally wrong with friendship you guys had. When two people are best of friends they respect and be there for each other no matter what, atleast for the sake of years of friendship. If he hasn’t been doing that then he is the one at fault here. He could have simply said that he doesn’t feel the same but you guys don’t have to change the equation of the friendship. Calling out someone and ignoring your best friend is going to make things work. On the other hand when you already knew that he won’t accept your feeling but still you confessed because you want to get it off your chest, then you should also accept whatever his decision was. Don’t still wait for his text or call. Accept it, and move ahead. You will meet new people in life. Yes the void initially will hrt you a lot that you don’t have anyone to share your problems with then either you can connect with any other trusted friend you know or start to write about your feelings in a journal. Don’t generalise everybody on the same scale. No one is going to judge you, your thoughts are valuable, it was just not understandable by him. Don’t purposely push yourself for a relationship but try to meet new people. You won’t go through the same thing just trust in yourself.

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Thanks for this.. and i also want help for that germophobia thing.. i don't know the exact reason for why it started bt now it is there and i can't avoid it.. i don't exactly have mysophobia cause i don't keep washing my hands or any other symptoms.. but imagining all those gross things in my head nd constantly trying to avoid it bt i just can't.. sometimes the image of me eating hairs and don't know what.. how to avoid all those ..

So you will have to focus on the reality, and constantly ignore the imagination part. You will have to consciously put efforts for that. Just dispute your thought that in reality anyone can never do that. Even when these thought come focus on the present that you’re eating what yoh can see or feel and is edible.

Thanks for ur help .. hope this will work

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