I'm constantly thinking about how I look and what people are thinking about me. I'm not a shallow person, I never judge others based on their appearance but I can't help but be hyper-aware of my own. I've always struggled with acne and looking at people with perfect skin on the internet has just aggravated my insecurities. I waste all my money on skincare products. It's become a dangerous obsession. I went to my boyfriend's place and because we were going to go to bed he asked me to take my make up off. It made me have a panic attack. I hate myself for being this way.