Its because u have earlier suppressed your desires may be !,u forced things on to urself
U should start doing things u like and stress less
I know how things keeps haunting us, but we need to realise that it’s our past we can’t go back and change the situation. We can only change the actions we do to not make the same mistakes.
Try to forgive yourself, you are a human, you will make mistakes..
try to outgrow the situation and further choosing to be more wise.
Everything will be ok eventually. Forgive yourself and give yourself another chance. Every wound heals and you will heal too. Believe in yourself and start living.