I have only had 2 sexual partners in my life. I started panic attacks after sex as a result of my ex-boyfriend's harshness and mistreatment during sex. Now even though I love my current partner who only treats me with love and care, I cannot shake off the habit. It's damaging our relationship and it has warped my view of sex. I can never just be in the moment. When I have panic attacks I'm filled with a sense of dread and shame. How do I get over this?