Pathetic

Question

I just feel soo left alone in college maybe I just I'm not capable of making good friends or I just don't fit in what they do! Since, childhood I've been criticised for not having good health and height. Even now I don't have a good height! I don't know I just wanted to share it , since it's hurting soo much from inside. I'm even just tearing up while writing this! I just feel like I'm not good enough while taking with friends. I feel shy , I don't know how to enjoy, how to crack Jokes. I'm an average student. I try to focus in class I get distracted. Even though I answer in class but still. I can't understand my teachers a bit. If I even understand them I just forget. I just am not able to fit in this new soo called college life. It's just soo hard . I've got really really ugly face. Ik i shouldn't say this but I can't help it. I think I need to accept that but I can't move on. People around me are absolutely beautiful. There's so much I wanna tell. I don't feel good.

_jen_ · Answer

I'd love too 🙂

farshy756 · Answer

you can share whatever you have in mind, at first it is really difficult to settle in a new place for a lot of people, some people can make friends early but this does not mean that those who don't, can never make friends, you can always learn how to communicate with people, how to crack jokes without hurting anyone.

_jen_ · Answer

Since, the day I entered college I had to only one thing in mind that I have to maintain cgpa. And I saw many people around they were just enjoying and talking and laughing around. While I had no courage to talk with anyone. But still I managed to make friends. But still I feel left alone. I feel as if they don't wanna talk to me. I feel that they know I'm a boring person. But I genuinely don't know how to be funny. I met one of my school frnd in college and we're in same class but in class we talk around but while going home she says goodbye to everyone except me. She doesn't even look at me. What am I supposed to do in that case?

_jen_ · Answer

I constantly try to change myself but then I have this inner feeling that tells me to stop getting involved with idiotic ppl as if I'm the only serious one. I've seen many of my classmates that joke around participate and still manage to get good impression and are capable of alot of things. I feel that I'm so irresponsible and such a fool in front of those! If just breaks me

farshy756 · Answer

the friend which you talked about and all the friends you have made, do you enjoy spending time with them or you do it just so you not feel alone?

_jen_ · Answer

I think I sometimes enjoy with them but most of the time I just go and talk with them to not feel alone.

wandrlust · Answer

look , friends will accept you for who you are .my bestfriend is really short but i don't care.in my case i am ugly but she doesn't care.before i met my bestfriend i too had a hardtime finding friends and fitting in and doubted myself .same problems that you did.but you know what you don't have try so hard to find friends .just be yourself and enjoy .be carefree you know.friendships will naturally formed .

_jen_ · Answer

Ok, I'll try to be me everytime!

guiltystork0 · Answer

what if I say you are not alone I'm also like this I've got hard time approaching people and that's ok

guiltystork0 · Answer

it's just how you are and you don't need to change your self for those people . everybody is not same .in college i also meet lot of people who are not likeme band they talk to my friend but not me and it's never bothers actually if they don't want to talk to me i also neither go and talk to them

_jen_ · Answer

I do that too , but the this feeling it just hurts soo much. I'm an introvert person Ik that but when it comes to talking to teachers it's not like that but when I start talking wid classmates I feel all the negativity around me I don't know but it makes me feel guilty. Soo much guilty!

_jen_ · Answer

And when we don't talk then also ppl start making fun. What in the world is all this mess. Why can't I just clear it? I don't know but I seriously doubt my existence. I don't know but but my life is becoming more of a hell because of my this behaviour. Why soo many disqualities just in me? Can't I just be happy like how others are. I don't envy them but I just realise how pathetic I've become. Things have changed soo much but I haven't 🥺🥺

guiltystork0 · Answer

the negativity that you feel is not you it's those peoples energy it's not you. and stop blaming your self this much. I'm also introvert and i too not talk to people if they don't talk to me first

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