hey dont give up yet .. do something that makes you feel good and right after that make a scedule dont be too strict in the beginning but level up the strictness day by day set alarms if thoughts seem to distract you ... you've got this .

I tried, I really did. But as soon as I decide to work on it, I become anxious, and my mind is always thinking of the future. I'm extremely turbulent by nature, and lonely as well. I do have people caring for me, but there's just no one whom I can say it all. Everything about my life, from the very start. It has been a roller coaster. But I don't have to courage to speak about my past because of some reasons. Nor can I explain the real me to anyone. And this kills me from inside. I just can't focus and don't know what to do with my life. I don't even want to die, because what would others think after I do something like that? Plus, I don't have that audacity to kill myself. Because I've not even done anything wrong. Why should I sacrifice myself for nothing? So basically I'm trapped.

i understand its difficult sometimes but give yourself another chance compete with yourself also give yourself breaks and little gifts like a tiny candy you love ... i am sure you deserve everything nice comming in your way and even more .. and about talking i understand there is noone i dont have anyone here but we are a community we can always talk things will get better trust the change and the process of change

Thank you ♡ idk but I feel like I was being selfish few hours ago, sorry for that, and yeah, I'm trying to keep your words in mind.