I have a post partum depression. I cannot easily cry unlike before. I felt like I am so strong. I am angry a lot even in a small things. I released my angel all the time. When I am so stressed, I scream to my baby, sometimes I want to hit her especially when she's crying so loud then I felt so bad after because I know in my heart tbat I love her so much. I want to disappear. I cant control myself and it hurts so bad that I got angry to my baby. I am not a good mommy to her, I wanted to die but I don't know where to start. I don't know what to do. I think no one will understand me. I am so sad. I ovrrthink a lot. I know I should not but it keeps on happening on my mind. I have a lot of negative thoughts in mind.