for parents thier child is precious.......and they behaves like this due to insecurty .....Just give some time to free yourself from these thoughts first.....just concentrate on schooling now......you can read books which can be helpful of being your friends now.......As per my experience dont think about what you dont have just be happy in what you have.......time is precious give it to valuable things.......friends are necessary to enjoy your life but here we are for you......you can talk with us about your feelings.....try to chnage your routine and divert your focus in positive attitude......and you will be fine being there atleast till youa achieve something big.

Hey! Thanks for reaching out to us. I think you should communicate with your parents. Who are you close to in your family? Any cousin, sibling or anybody?