I was once ok when I was little,but growing up I started to grow distant from people. I don't even remember why, but it's even worse with boys I can't even look them in the eye or anywhere near the face to a certain point I can't even be around them and effecting my school life a lot. what hurts even more that I hurt some people that I care for because of my fears, and there's that classmate of mine who treats very well and always tries to help me without forcing me change. he just understands me. I hate myself for the way I treat him. I run away I sometimes give him the cold shoulder and he still is good with me and this me with everyone who is good with aside from my family and close friends especially boys. This is the first time I let this out, but I'm really scared that I would hurt other people.