its ok to not feel good today, the good thing about to today is that it will end and feelings will rest and reset. I totally understand missing family and being away for months, its like its constant loneliness that rests in my bones. A nice way that's helped me cope is try and appreciate tiny moments that I am content (cheesy, I know). I hate writing things down so I take photos, like "oh the way the sun is hitting this coffee cup is really pretty" or " look at this nice rock". small things that I've learned to appreciate give me more reason to get up and live without needing other people. its really difficult being away from people you love, your feelings are really valid, the anxiety is just working overtime to protect yourself from hurting. dealing with that and moving schools sounds so overwhelming and im so proud of you for doing it and reaching out to people (us!). The fact that its a new school is scary but also means you have opportunities to start over, there is always hope in the future. the hard part to finding hope is quieting the anxious part of your mind, to do that it helps to keep track of your thoughts, recognize them, and trying to stop harmful ideas. its important to be kind and gentle to yourself, you deserve compassion (actually self compassionate meditations are very nice, definitely recommend). I totally get public speaking anxiety too, the amount of times Ive cried instead of talking while presenting is embarrassing. emotions are overwhelming! and its ok to acknowledge that. In high school I had to tell most of my teachers that I had anxiety and ask to present during lunch/after school, perhaps doing that might help? a way that helps calm me down is counting things in the room or my breath, focus on breathing and draw figure eights on my hand. also a tip for meeting new people that I find helpful is find someone that seems chill then go up and compliment something about them! nice sweater, makeup, eyes etc... after that keep the conversation going by saying you are new and can ask about clubs, teachers etc.. I really hope everything goes well and your exams are good!! <3

Hi. I understand how difficult it is because I also have social anxiety and I'm also going back to college to write exams and I've had to deal with this anxiety for many years. don't give up, just try to take deep breaths every time you feel anxious. Someone once told me something now helps me with my anxiety, people don't actually notice the things that we criticise in ourselves. no one notices until you point out the negative things about yourself so don't worry about who's around you, just be yourself and do what you want

Omg thanks alot> its really means alot to me. This really did help feel light. Its weird how a bit of support completely changes your mood, cause mine did!! Thanks and i wish the best for yourself in the future^^

@aries thankyou so much wish only the best for you. Have a great day or night and hoping a beautiful future ahead of you. ^^♡

@AgustT thanks alot i really appreciate it♡ Hope the possible best for you ^^

@blessedtobealivekpopfan my pleasure and thank you. Hope you feel better and I hope everything works out for you 😊

@AugustT hopefully yeah^^