no matter what I try I still have feelings for my ex, one of the main reasons is that her parents can teach me music and I'm very envious at times about missing out on stuff, I shouldn't feel this way as I believe there is plenty of opportunities elsewhere but at the same time I feel like I'm still struggling to be happy with it,, appreciation is very important for me as it helps me to avoid feeling this way but still often it does, I get trapped in a field of nostalgia and unhealthy thinking of the past being better, I'm encountered many different kinds of people so far and I need someone to remind me of how much I can achieve