see I'm gonna be very honest with you, the problem with me is that I've lately realised that i compare my life with others. and for some motivated people it might not make sense but to me, it does! Each and every person whom I know in my life is happy and enjoying! where as, I've been going through a bad phase from idk how long. Sometimes, it just hurts a lot to know that yeah, i have no one in my life who actually loves me and cares for me!
skylar
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I expect nothing else from u but truth from u.... the more u say whats good in ur easier it becomes...
zestydotterel1
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but at the same time it's not that i wanna give up! i fight each and every day with all this and still end up being clueless every single night
skylar
so... why do u compare ur life with others?
zestydotterel1
probably because the people i compare my life with, they have better events in their life where as, i dont
zestydotterel1
and I know I'm not supposed to compare myself with anyone but still for some reason I do
skylar
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is comparing ur life others, worth it?
zestydotterel1
you've got a point! but i hope you understand that it's not as easy as it seems to not compare yourself with anyone
skylar
bruh! it's not abt what I think... its abt what u think and feel here
skylar
why do u think u end up clueless at the end of the day?
zestydotterel1
yeah! because I've been following a same routine from a long time due to which life becomes boring and exhausting
skylar
tell me something... is ur day productive? or do u spend ur time in overthinking?
zestydotterel1
i actually try my best to not overthink and stuff, and yeah ofcourse I love being productive too
zestydotterel1
but the kind of circumstance I'm stuck in at this moment, it's very hard for me to put my eyes on being productive n stuff
skylar
hmph.... be honest and tell me what u do first... not what u try to not to do... u love being productive... but are u actually being productive? take a moment to gather ur thoughts.
zestydotterel1
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okay so, I'm not going to school right now cus holidays are going on and i don't think that I'm actually that much productive to be very frank
zestydotterel1
i just procrastinate a lot these day due to which my family has started hating me now
zestydotterel1
and as such, there's no such activity that i follow on a daily basis
zestydotterel1
though, i really want my routine to be systematic
skylar
okay, is there any other specific reason ,why u r not being protective?
zestydotterel1
no i think this is it
skylar
it's seems like procrastination issue... is it?
zestydotterel1
actually there are tons of other reasons too but yaa procrastination is the main one
skylar
others reasons u want to share?
zestydotterel1
it might take a long time for me to share other reasons too, you'll just get bored so better let's just leave it
skylar
I won't! take all ur time needed
zestydotterel1
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okay so I don't know if you're gonna judge me if I say that but I've noticed recently that my mom has started hating me and like basically she considers me a loser and kinda makes me feel as if I'm worth less
zestydotterel1
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and also she doesn't ask me anything regarding my studies, my surroundings and stuff, it's basically like she doesn't care about me anymore
skylar
I wont judge u... I got family issues myself.. so I understand
skylar
is that a recent change?
zestydotterel1
her nature has been changing slowly
zestydotterel1
she was not the same before, she used to love me soo much i swear
skylar
since how long have u been noticing this?
zestydotterel1
its just that she changed herself so much
zestydotterel1
since a month, to be very specific
skylar
uhm.. do u think ur mum's, going through menopause or some other issue at home b/w ur family members?
zestydotterel1
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it's very possible though! my family members are very moody too, sometimes they're way too sweet, sometimes they just wanna ruin my existence
skylar
so.... in menopause hormones are all over place - and she can take frustrations out at u...
zestydotterel1
I'm telling you it's the first time I'm feeling as if I'm really depressed or something
skylar
and how do u spend ur day in general..?
zestydotterel1
but it would be having a specific period right? why would she literally take all her aggression out on me everyday
zestydotterel1
laying on bed mostly NGL
skylar
if she's going through that menopause -then it can take few months.
skylar
ngl? what's this?
zestydotterel1
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i hope if she's going through that, she recovers soon
zestydotterel1
not gonna lie-
skylar
are u in school or college? do some hobbies.... show them u r doing or learning something.,
zestydotterel1
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I'm in school and I'm an Indian basically so yaa they've got no support towards my hobbies
zestydotterel1
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for them, studies have always been the first priority
zestydotterel1
ahhh . I'm complaining so much i think
skylar
I'm indian too by the way
skylar
and no u r not complaining too much.... let it get all out
zestydotterel1
ohh I'm glad to know that
skylar
most of people in this are.. indians
zestydotterel1
thank you so much for saying that<3
zestydotterel1
yaaa exactly! some of them are Americans too though
zestydotterel1
but yaa mostly Indians
skylar
still have at least two hobbies.... to keep urself occupied... I've come acrossed some europeans and a African and a British
zestydotterel1
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I'm gonna try my level best to make that happen for my case! it's great talking to you though, thanks!
skylar
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best of luck!! and dont hesitate to rant here, yh?!