Hey Deep, I understand the guilt you go through of eating and then wanting to throw up. I have been bulimic in my college days and it took a toll over my health. We binge eat to make ourselves feel better and immediately throw up to not to feel guilty. But bullimia also comes from self esteem and what we think of ourselves. The best thing that has worked for me and I would like to suggest you is to keep a calorie goal and consume within that goal. It will only work if your will power is strong. I know its not easy but you have to give it a try. Bulimia also triggers when we have nothing to do which makes it harder these days because of the lockdown. I suggest you take some indoor hobby and keep yourself busy. You can stay fit and exercise using the huge variety of workout videos online. I am currently undertaking a 28 days fitness challenge by Nike. Even after this if you're facing difficulties, seek professional help. Tc and be safe.

I'd like to start by mentioning how admirable it is for you to want to work on this. There is no dearth of women who struggle with body image issues. Many women carry a great deal of shame around our bodies. The messages of what an ideal body are fed to us constantly. In such a climate it becomes very difficult to love what we see in the mirror. 1. Practice self love through affirmations. What are the affirmations regarding your body that you would like to give yourself? Note them down. Place them on your mirror and say them to yourself everyday. 2. Change your outlook regarding work outs and what you eat. Because they require a great deal of effort on our end, we can often view them as chores. Instead, try to see them as practicing self care. Eating poorly is also a form of self harm, though less obvious. Treat these activities as in self care and self love. 3. Bulimia is characterized by uncontrolled bouts of binge eating. This occurs usually due to some form of stress. Consider pausing and making a note of what you're feeling before you start to eat. This brief but mindful pause can be very useful in reflecting on what's making you binge. Once you pause to think of the reason, it's often easier to hold back. 4. You may also want to consider making a plan for your eating habits. Strict dieting is not sustainable and increases the chances of relapse later. Instead, consider working with a professional to help you design a diet that is more of a healthy lifestyle change that provides you with ample opportunity to enjoy the foods that you love. 5. It's hard to avoid messages around what an ideal body type is. Try to limit it's flow in your life. For instance, not who are the people that you are following in social media. Could that be creating standards in you mind that you feel the pressure to meet? If so get rid of these. 6. Be more mindful of the messages you send yourself regarding your self. What words do you use to describe yourself? Change them. Make them more positive and loving. 7. If you feel that it's still something that you are struggling with, then reach out to a therapist. Good luck. I see that you really want to feel at ease in your skin and you're working hard for that. Please don't give up. It may take some time but you owe it to yourself to persevere and emerge as someone filled with self love.

Hey! I can totally understand you- anorexia warrior here! I’m actually still trying to find peace with my body too, it’s hard. I contacted an online coach, real coach and trainer I discovered on Instagram, and it’s surprisingly really helpful to have someone watching over you, helping you with your goals, creates workouts suitable for you... Otherwise, I find kinda helpful to distract myself with things I like, for example painting, reading and so on. Just do the things that will distract your mind from being pointed just on your physique... I wish you the best<3 Peace and love