Hey! Thanks for reaching out. I am sure it must be difficult. How long has it been since you’re feeling this way?

around 2017

may be before that

i belong to a joint family i am a introvert i remember there was a feeling of leaving my house as soon as possible and this feeling was on peak when i was in 10th class because at that tine i thought okey here comes so many opportunities work hard and get a job and leave so after 12th i went to kota , i took this decision because my family wanted me to do so and plus i was happy because i got what i wanted but there i came in a relationship after that my every decison was for that relationship but it did not worked because it was one sided so i ended it but that feeling of leaving home and hating my parents changed now i started working on my parents wants that is what they want me to do so i took admission in engineering college but i dropped out from that college same year because of boring lifestyle going to college bunking class got addicted to pubg i was not happy so i left that

but i think during all these time i was just avoiding my these feeling of hopelessness

i tried different activities like reading books or joining mma classes

but every time i just stick to one thing like a addiction ,doing everything to pass time

i know it is just a phase it will pass but sometime it is difficult

I can totally understand. I think we should connect over a call to help you better.

ok