Im just so fucking depressed, its unreal. i have no one, no real friends, nothing. my family thinks my mental health is a joke. i failed my driving test twice, i didnt study for an university exam — i just feel so fucking hopeless. i try to build connections with people but all they do is turn me down. they ignore, they take me as a fool. i just dont know what to do. i long so fucking bad for this one person who will understand me, who will be there for me, who will love me, whether it be as a friend or actual lover. i hope things will get better but they just dont. i want closure, i want friends, i want to love, i want to be loved, i want to be understood and taken seriously. i dont want to be the quiet kid, i want to get out this stupid state of mind. with each passing day it seems like im falling deeper and deeper into this fucking darkness.