Arrey chill emotions ko side rkh kar thoda sa acceptance laao.. if possible read bhagwad geeta..
Well that's common... Even I have experienced that!
Ur answer to the last line is -
U have to make urself ... Don't question who I am what I am why I am!
Start applying ur principles on urself... Helping others is ok but not applying the same thing on ourselves sounds kinda weird😀
Meditate daily 5 mins, 10 mins 15 mins... Don't think u r depressed... Make urself productive make urself busy so that such thoughts don't come in ur mind.. it's just b'coz u r overthinking about situation... Next time when such thoughts come in ur mind take a deep breath and let go all these stuff as well... U r ok... U r fine...
I don't have friends i think I should make friends...but I don't know who can I trust
Talk with people make friends... See whether if they r of ur type or not ..not everytime ur friends will understand u help u...u have to apply same efforts as well...
Trust? Trust allows us to feel safe with friends...