The doctors suspect that my mom has tumors in the brain which can be fatal. Even if the surgery is successful we have at most one and a half to two years with her. I'm am the only child and it's just the three of us in our family, mom dad and me. I have no idea on how to deal with any of it. Everytime I hear a sound, it feels like my mom's calling me. I am unable to sleep at night and I feel suffocated at times. There are times when my ears go numb. I really don't know how to cope with any of it. There's always this invisible force pressing down on my chest.