my job training required me to be around my trainer constantly for 3 months. they were the most stressful 3 month ive experienced. they berated and belittled me for everything with a raised voice. i could not get another trainer and felt trapped. i had disturbing thoughts of self harm, ending my life or wishing i were kidnapped so id be away from them. it effects my job and my confidence in my ability to perform. i work with my partner now but sometimes i am reliving the situations from training in my mind and lash out at my partner if they raise their voice at me. i have felt i have been getting better because i dont think about those 3 months as much. i had a panic attack at work because i was reminded of the worst part of those 3 months.