So, i just had a shower .. but not a normal one it took my heart out i felt like drowning myself. all that happened was i kept crying and crying but no voice from my mouth is screaming out though it wants . I'm a single child everyone thinks it's a gift but no it's curse to be left alone for everything..i have no body to talk i have to pretend being frnds with ppl i do not even trust . why didn't God gave me a sibling why did he left me alone to suffer. every problem in the family every one expects me to solve it or deal with it alone but I don't wanna be alone anymore all i feel like is just run away from everything. every one thinks I'm being complicated, stubborn including my parents and my bf but I'm not I'm just feeling really alone why doesn't anyone understands that.