tw ! grooming pedophilia. when i was 15 years old i had that friend of mine which was some years older than me and he would make sexual jokes with me which i would just go along. whenever i didnt go along they would make fun of me so i just tagged along. they got exposed later about their actions and made me defend them and try to take the blame because he constantly said she would kill herself and all that so i was scared then they got exposed for more horrible things and i stopped being their friend after that. I still feel horrible though for letting this happen to me. i always get these random memories and feel like i am a terrible person. it messes up with me alot. i just wanted to let it out here since i have been feeling more awful lately about it.