this is my First time sharing how i am feeling nowadays.

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this is my first time using this platform to share how i feel . i am not sure why i feel like this i don't even know how i feel. I don't like being sad i don't want to be sad. I had relationship issues during my teenage i got involved with drugs to overcome it and ended up making it worst . so i left my home for 5 months and i stopped smoking and Drinking i was successful in overcoming from it. but recently i started hearing my own voice i can't explain it it's like whatever i think of inside my head .. i can hear it like i am telling myself what do you do next . it's really annoying... I hear familiar voices in crowed place .. it's like my friends are taking to each other but when i turn around they're just random strangers talking and those familiar voices are not there anymore. when i try to sleep i feel that i am feeling extremely warm and my sleep gets distured  even when AC is on .. this thing is really messing up with my sleep cycle. I can't discuss it with people i know.

ummm · Answer

hi uk07se

ummm · Answer

I appreciate your willing to share

uk07se · Answer

hi

farshy756 · Answer

can you tell since when you have started to hear these voices?

ummm · Answer

yup did u have any past tauram

uk07se · Answer

I have been hearing my voices from last two months .

ummm · Answer

and what sought of noises are these do u feel scared

brainyMeerkat1 · Answer

u from?   are u from uttarakhand?

ummm · Answer

do they scare u

ummm · Answer

who

farshy756 · Answer

do you think these noises have any triggers? like a perticular situation something like that.

uk07se · Answer

I don't feel scared but it's really annoying i feel irritated like if i Don't like a perticular food item .. i find myself telling not to eat i keep thinking about it .. when someone is irritating me i start hearing my own voice in my head again.

uk07se · Answer

yes i am from uttrakhand but i Live in Delhi

ummm · Answer

ok uk07se

farshy756 · Answer

do you find it difficult to share your feelings and thoughts with other people?

uk07se · Answer

yes i think my friends will make fun of me .. only solution they have for it .. let's get drunk i don't even get drunk unless i consume too much alcohol i don't enjoy it anymore

ummm · Answer

actually it's not but a delusion ur mind just talks to u to sought things going on with you or around u to handle it

uk07se · Answer

I don't want my mind to talk because it irritates me all of the time .

ummm · Answer

try talking to you mind back or try journaling ur thoughts in a book Or a sheat of paper

skylar · Answer

when do u hear these voices?

ummm · Answer

it irritates you coz u don't like it and ur nt responding back to ur thoughts

farshy756 · Answer

or you can share your concerns with someone you trust.

uk07se · Answer

I tried writing down what i hear and think about but it's just useless for me .. afterall they're my thoughts

uk07se · Answer

Skylar i hear voice randomly anywhere.. but when i am with people it happens very less .. but when i am traveling alone in metro or cab or i am doing my work on PC it happens quite often

ummm · Answer

its ok if ur friends can't understand coz nt every one faces the same situation unless n until it doesn't bother you

farshy756 · Answer

thousands of thoughts come in our mind every minute, some are positive some are negative, try to focus on the present situation.

skylar · Answer

so.. we can conclude that u hear voices when u r either alone or sitting idle?

uk07se · Answer

UMMM i tried telling a friend who's my friend since 20 years .. he said are you out of your mind and i got really worried .. what if i am really out of my mind

ummm · Answer

can u describe a situation or a thought hoe does it sounds what they tell u

skylar · Answer

no... u r not of out of ur mind..! some people just can not relate to it or cannot understand it... plz don't think that way

uk07se · Answer

yes Skylar most of the time when i am alone talking to no one it happens but sometimes .. during nightout parties i keep telling myself to do stuff like go outside..

ummm · Answer

@uk07se no relax I told you r8 nt every one will understand ur situation

farshy756 · Answer

you are not out of your mind, what you are going through is an actual problem which needs a solution.

ummm · Answer

ur completely ok

skylar · Answer

so what do these voices tell u to do?

uk07se · Answer

voices are just what i think I'll give you an example .. let's just say you're traveling in metro . and system announces that next station is Dwarika sector 21 .. i keep hearing it again and again 'next station is Dwarika sector 21'..

farshy756 · Answer

do you have any insecurities about yourself, or have you ever had the mindset that something bad will happen in future?

ummm · Answer

you tend to have a sense of good focus

uk07se · Answer

yes sometimes I feel like I am running out of time i am just 25

skylar · Answer

ur this example is like reminding u - so u dont forget... it happens when people get anxious and fear what if they forget.

uk07se · Answer

ummm but i don't think my focus is good i am not so good in academics

ummm · Answer

it's just that u never studied with intrest

uk07se · Answer

ummm i have lost intresting in anything i used to watch anime website alot , i used to read manhwa , manga novels alot but it just don't excites me anymore.. i don't feel like doing anything

farshy756 · Answer

are you under any stress?

ummm · Answer

listen@uk07se the only thing according to me will work in this situation is try responding to ur thoughts if it tells u fr eg :train is arriving now u just tell  I know my dear I can see thanks for the remainder

skylar · Answer

do these voice tell u to do something that u shouldn't do?

ummm · Answer

ohh ok beside this  is there any thing that bothering u

ummm · Answer

any kind of stress?

uk07se · Answer

farshy .. during my college days I fell for a girl .. we never dated but i got friendzoned during final year she found someone and we never talked for next 1 year which led me to smoke marijuana and drink alot .. i used to do it almost everyday.. but somehow I managed to move on from all this .. but she came back after 1 year i treated her like she's just another friend to me ..(2018-19) but last year 2021 July we got really close .. i started developing feelings for again .. but we were not i a relationship but we did stuff what we were not supposed to do .. but 4 months ago we stopped talking i was not effected by it . cause i was just busy doing my work. ... I wonder if it has anything to do with it

farshy756 · Answer

do you have feelings for her?

uk07se · Answer

Skylar my voice keep telling me to go outside of my house .. to smoke or sit alone in park

skylar · Answer

just smoke ....?

uk07se · Answer

farshy756 i don't think so i don't think about her anymore i used to stalk her alot but i don't do it anymore

uk07se · Answer

yes if I'll go outside I'll smoke it just happens what else am i supposed to do outside alone ..

farshy756 · Answer

do you have any traumatic experience which you have hard time talking about?

uk07se · Answer

farshy756 when we stopped talking after my college (2017) .. my condition was worst .. i couldn't sleep .. but this time it didn't happen.. i miss her .. i feel like messaging her .. but i stop myself from doing it

skylar · Answer

so... 1) try meditation - start slow, the  build it up to 15-20min - this will give u clarity and peace of mind. 2) don't stop writing - even if it doesn't do much, but it will help u to get the things out of ur self 3) be careful of the content (social media,movies or anysuch)u consume... read or surround ur self with positive things... 4) if u r anxious - destress ur self like - u can try yoga, baking or gardening 5) keep ur self engaged...

farshy756 · Answer

do you experience any physical pain in your body while hearing these voices?

uk07se · Answer

I have ankylosin spondylitis i feel pain all the time

uk07se · Answer

Skylar I'll start doing 1) meditation 2) I'll try writing.. 3) i have habit of listening to sad songs so uninstalled Spotify 1 month ago .. but i do listen to podcasts about mahabharat and Ramayana etc listening to these podcasts helps to sleep .. 4) doing yoga can be difficult for me but I'll start doing it lets see how far i can go .. 5) my work keeps me engaged that will not be a problem

farshy756 · Answer

I would like to add a few more points in @skylar's message, 1) you should go for counseling rather than medication because what you are going through can only be cured through therapy, 2) you can take medication for your ankylosin spondylitis, so you can focus more on yourself, 3) practice self care and give yourself time, 4) whenever you start hearing these voices, start listening to music or cooking or doing something you enjoy, just try to not focus on these voices, or practice mindfulness, it can help you focus more on the present situation than worrying about your thoughts, 5) but this does not mean you will ignore your thoughts, reading your journal and try to clarify your thoughts.

uk07se · Answer

farshy756 i appreciate you for helping me out with solution.. i have doubt in point no. 3 you made .. how to practice self care and what's giving myself time

farshy756 · Answer

giving yourself time means focus on your need and wants, you could do something you always wanted to do, but wasn't able to, give yourself time to understand your thoughts, your needs and wants, your insecurities, your ups and downs and self care is all about taking care of your body physically and mentally, like developing healthy habits, going out for a walk ( it is better than smoking).

uk07se · Answer

Farshy756 i think this is going to be the hardest one to follow

farshy756 · Answer

I know but you don't have to start with big steps like giving yourself an hour or two each day, just 10 minutes, sit and do what you love, and for self care, don't stress yourself, just take small steps like getting enough sleep.

farshy756 · Answer

and write your progress everyday, so whenever you feel like you can't do it, see the progress you have made each day.

skylar · Answer

self care - it means, respect and appreciate ur self and ur bounderies. don't ignore urself... all the points mentioned before are for self care itself... the hardest point is to make efforts consistently... and remember - healing isn't linear.

skylar · Answer

best of luck and don't be afraid to reach out!

uk07se · Answer

dear Skylar and Farshy i don't know who are you in real world but i am sure you both are really nice human being thank you for helping me out ❤️. please let me know if i can reach you any other time

farshy756 · Answer

you can reach out to me at any time, I would happy to help.

skylar · Answer

anytime! u can post ur queries here, or just comment here

uk07se · Answer

it means you'll be available here .. i don't forget me .. I'll be bothering you guys again and again not just when i am sad or anxious

skylar · Answer

that's okay! we're here

curiouspepper9 · Answer

I also felt the same

uk07se · Answer

❤️❤️ thank you again Skylar & Farshy

farshy756 · Answer

yeah, you can talk about what you want,

uk07se · Answer

curiouspepper9 do you hear voices too ?

curiouspepper9 · Answer

but i am not losing the hope. now I am aware that many people around the globe are suffering from anxiety. I also felt the issue that i am single in the world and everybody around me is talking something. I felt like I am going to faint.

uk07se · Answer

don't worry Farshy and Skylar can help you they helped me too .. they're Angel in disguise

farshy756 · Answer

hey, curiouspepper9, you can share what you are going through.

I really want to change

help me please

I feel sick w stress

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