I really can't pin point what's actually wrong with me, I feel so depressed and sad for no reason at all and I start crying. I hate my own existence and this life which I've chosen. I fucking hate every damn minute of it. I wish to make changes in it to make myself happy but there are certain people who continue to be a constant obstacle in my happiness and I don't know how to solve it. I'm going crazy as each day passes and I don't know how much more I can endure this.