I feel lonely and tired of the situation I am in. I lost my father, whom I was very close to, around 3 years ago. My then girlfriend helped me cope with the loss and became a safe space for me. We recently broke up after a 3 year long relationship, and it got very ugly, even to the extent where she outright cursed me. Despite having close friends, I feel like I'm alone when it comes to the topic of my father's death and the complex emotions are further worsened by the breakup. I just end up feeling that I am all alone and I have to deal with this alone only, with no shoulder to cry or relax on. I'm tired, I just want to let it all out.