I've had a broken family ever since I was little. My dad walked out on us when I was 2 yo. Throughout life my dad's family has tried to destroy me, my sis and mom's life. I've grown up in a house where there were constant fights and it has left me scarred and I guess I'll stay this way for the rest of my life. But apart from this every friendship I had has ended up hurting me. I always get backstabbed by everyone I get close to.Now I feel so broken that I don't think I'll ever heal. Life's always been a struggle. I don't know what to do. I don't want to stay alone for the rest of my life. I've been on my own for so long but I need good healthy relationships with people but I always end up hurt. I don't know what to do. Almost two years ago this guy that I fell in love with broke my heart so brutally. He broke me so bad that I've completely shut people out of my life. I'm scared I'll be this way for the rest of my life. I'm scared I won't ever heal from all this. Now I have mild depression and anxiety and I fear it will overpower me soon. I've lost the will to do anything. I don't know any way out of this.